i know y it rains...

it rains kasi the sky is sad... nakikiramay sa sadness ko at sa sadness ng ibang tao.

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a chance for every person to cry without hesitations... without anybody noticing that there are tears in their eyes...

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haha... ang lungkot ata ng post ko... wala lang... nakakahawa kasi ang rainfall. rainy season is such a sad season... tamang tama para sa mga malulungkot. grrr... i'm officially mastering the art of being a bum and also i have decided that i should master the art of being timid.

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i had enough with being open with my feelings.. yeah, i think i should also master the art of zipping my mouth and just keeping things to myself. hahaha. (at ano itong ginagwa ko ngaun?? haha. unzipping my mouth!!)

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though patience is my virtue and "be(ing) optimistic" is my new motto, still i'm having a hard time dealing with my attitude of being ATAT. hays... bwisit na ugali toh... nakakainis. i think i should drop the subject of being segurista. i have this attitude kasi na dapat mas maaga pa lang alam ko na yung outcome... very contradicting with my virtue. i guess being patient is only applicable para dun sa mga bagay na malayo sa word na "love".

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i'm not in hurry... really, i'm not. its just that, "kung wala naman kasing kahihinatnan e wag na lang natin palawakain ung mga bagay-bagay." wala lang naicip ko lang... epekto siguro talga toh ng pagmamaster sa pagiging bum. hindi ako umaasa... as in hindi talaga... at lalong hindi ako nagcoconclude. ayoko lang maiwan sa ere...ayokong maiwan na nakabitin. ayokong magkamali. ayokong ayoko na!! aun!! hahaha.

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aun, lumabas din ang totoo... ayaw ng magkamali, kasi nadala na?? OO, dalang dala na... pero eto pa rin si loka... may energy pa rin na magtry, na this time it might work. na this time baka eto na nga talaga... asar!!!! ang gulo gulo kong tao!!!

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masaya naman ako with my life... =) bwisit lang talga na minsan certain situations needs to happen to shaken up my happy life and turn it into a semi-drama, na minsan when it becomes out of hand, it turns into a heavy drama.

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aun pa ang isa... bwisit kasi kapag nadala ka na sa mga bagay bagay dun na nagsisimulang maging out of hand. losing control... na kapag hindi ka prepared... OUCH ang kapalit. kaya nga ako natutong maging "atat" at pessimist para bago ko pa malaman ang ending, nakondisyon ko na sarili ko at masasabi kong "i'm already prepared for that." (saan na napunta ang pagiging optimistic?? haha)

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cge na nga, i admit, hirap akong maging optimistic!! pinipilit kong maging positive thinker, sobra!! kasi kailangan... as in kailangan!!! kasi ayoko na ng madramang ending!!! waaah. ang gulo gulo ko na talga... grrr

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hays... life is but a cycle... parang gulong lang na paikot-ikot... masaya, malungkot, comedy, drama. paulit-ulit. di pwedeng laging masaya... dapat meron ding sadness. arggh!!

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as of now... ako ay nasa semi-drama, kakatapos lang ng semi heavy drama... sana, sana, as in sana... MASAYA naman ang kasunod. at sana sa susunod na ulan hindi na tumulo ang luha ko...
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BOW!!


(ang drama!! haha... ung iba dyan dinagdag lang... para makulay!! para malandi!! hahaha)

welcome back...

to kitz...
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putek.. namiss kita... WELCOME BACK! the quote that you have just resent was meant for someone else... hahaha.
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nweiz, i do hope that ur alright now. tagal mo nawala, nagworry ako. nweiz, naiintindihan naman kita... ginawa ko na yan dati remember?! mas malala nga lang ung akin... months. haha.
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alam mo naman ang friendship natin... mawalan man ng communication for months alam mong lagi kang may babalikan.... =) LOVE YOU brukz!!
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wapak quote... e2 daw ung sinend ko kay kitel dati... binabalik nya lang DAW sa kin... haha
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" Masakit hindi dahil hindi mo ako mahal...

kung di dahil hindi mo ko sinubukang mahalin...

Masakit hindi dahil mahal mo sya,

ngunit dahil alam ko na kahit dalawa na lang tayo sa mundo...

e kaibigan pa rin ako sayo..."

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too bad its not applicable.
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still waiting... waiting... a never ending wait!
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(headache... i can't continue anymore... )

san lazaro & more!!

i was in a hurry... kala ko maiiwan ako ng bus... haha. pero ang aga ko pala. =)

im a bit worried kasi i will be joining the other section...

some of them are familiar faces... aun, i remember kuya apple & ate nora. i had a make-up duty with them before at st. martin's. buti na lang kahit papano may kakilala ako...

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on the way 2 san lazaro, loner ako...

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it was raining hard... it fits my mood very well. loner in the sense that "panis na laway ko" wala makausap. haha. buti may bitbit akong ipod, soundtrip... linkin park at buti na lang at may mabait na kitikitext!! salamat!!

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inside the hospital...

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we went to the ampitheater (as they call it), we had our orientation. hospital's history, staffs... etc. we also had our tour... we have to wear our apron, s-gown & we also have to use a double mask for our protection. FYI... San Lazaro Hospital is the center for communicable disease in the Philippines... meaning lahat ng nakakahawang sakit d2 nacoconfine... like TB, AIDS, Chicken pox... etc. that's why we need to have protection kapag d2 magduduty!! =) mahirap na at baka mahawa pa kami...

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bukod kay kuya apple... thank you dun sa 1 guy, na nakisukob sa kin... thank u kasi kinausap mo ko at nagkwento ka pa, dun sa 1 guy pa... cencia na maliit ako e. haha. dun sa 1 guy... thank you at sinamahan mo ako, pacencia na din sa abala. =) at dun sa 1 girl... thank you at kinausap at inantay mo ko. =) hopefully tomorrow all of you guys will talk to me. =) Hurray Honest 2!!

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on the way home...

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soundtrip ulit. tulad lang kanina, napanis laway ko, but its ok, i'm a bit tired na rin kasi. thank you ulit sa aking katext. =)

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it's raining really hard again & as always, manila's flooded again. whew, traffic pa!!

tired na... on the way home.

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--- AUG. 5, 2007

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once again, i had my pictorial... medyo showy ung top ko. hahaha. mainit kasi. i'm having a hard time with my "angle". huhuhu.

( http://chixzy.multiply.com/ )

sunday pictorial... haha
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--- CYF... 2pm.

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i attended the cyf... konti lang kami but it was fun. the short talk was cool, pede talagang irelate sa life. it was all about the family... coping up with things. "family friction" solutions... very informative ung lesson. =)

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we had an activity, jonelle (game master... naks!!) gave us some text card (pokeman) and instructed us to make a house out of it. it was a bit hard ang liit kasi nun cards tsaka LUMA NA!! tse! hahaha. nweiz, our group won... look at our work!! hahaha. ganda!! =)

mansion na gawa sa text... hehe

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after the CYF... me & my friend, jhun, went to our house. astig!! after 9 years.... ahihihi. aun, nakakahiya kasi pinagdala pa nya ko ng blue berry & buko tart... (tart nga ba un?) SARAP grabe!! lalo na ung blue berry... THANK YOU!! =)

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blue berry & buko tart... (tama ba?)

YUMMY!!!

aun, walang humpay na kwentuhan... dami kailangan i-catch up sa buhay buhay... hehe. =) i had fun!! (sana ikaw din, sana di ka nabored. )

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nagkayagan bumili ng ice cream na nauwi sa pagpunta sa plaza.... sakto may mga tiange na (for the fiesta). tingin 2x for pirated dvd's. haha. bad!! super dami ng tao sa plaza!!

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Jhun & me... =)

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we took our picture habang nagpapahinga sa may plaza... ahehe. =) tapos aun uwian na!!

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waiting... waiting... waiting... life nga naman!!!! ang saklap minsan...

weird driew

ok fine.. i felt something really weird...
ok fine. im listening to ariel rivera's "minsan lang kita iibigin".
ok fine. it felt weird talaga.
ok fine. i was browsing profiles, pictures... then suddenly...
ok fine. something struck me... hard.
ok fine. the weird feeling is getting stronger.
ok fine!!!

now i know... im becoming hesitant!!!
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hahaha. naweweirdohan na ko!!!
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putek... ERASE ERASE NA DAPAT!!!
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ang panget ng feeling. just when i let it come freely saka nmn biglang papasok ung thought na... "ooopzzz, wag, he's too good for me"

GRRRRRRR. bwisit na kanta yan!! hahaha
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kapraningan tlga... its invading my nerves again!!

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nweiz,

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" Happy Birthday Jellybeans aka SOSOY!! "

-ur main goal is to be back here soon para maging happy na ang aking heaven na si dang... =)

-LOVE YOU BOTH!!

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ng dahil sa kalungkutan at kaweirdohan... i was back to my old hobby... reading!! i saw a book on the shelf... read it under the light of a flashlight... 234pages...

"Around The World in 80 Days" by Jules Verne...

after 30 mins... I finished reading it. swabe!

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--- i missed physics class... sorry engr. presa!! =)

psst rion... happy beeeday!!

naks... ang lakas sa kin e.... haha. special blog para lang batiin ka! hahaha. . . ------ i tried eating alone... i've been wondering kasi how it feels eating alone. that's why aun, kumain ako magisa ng chicken tocino sa jollibee... ganun pala ang feeling kapag kumakain magisa sa isang fast food or anywhere else... kalungkot!! huhu. patingin tingin sa paligid... observing people, thinking about things.... hays dami pede maicip kapag magisa... kung anu anong bagay ang pumasok sa isip ko... . --- i firmly believe that, it was alryt being alone kahit pamisan minsan... maging independent man lang kahit sa maliit na bagay... =)

what a duty!!!

Sincere 3... watching Mr. Bean. haha

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i thought this day would be a lonesome day but i was very wrong... super bait ng sincere 3... mas ok pa sumama d2 sa group na toh kung icocompare ko sa group ko na loyal 3... na puro "plastik!!" ang mga tao. Oooopz!! hahaha.

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nweiz, THANK YOU ulit sincere 3 ang babait nyo... ibang klase ang duty natin, we're like scavengers... hahaha. pero ok lang, i had fun nmn e... =)

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---kuya dennis, alvin, sergio, jobelle, mizzy, garneth.... forgot ko ung iba... basta guys.. THANK YOU!!

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(incomplete details....)