12.09.2007

pressured ako...

--late update na toh... waaaaaaaaah.

bakit nga ba ko pressured nung time na toh?? mmm....

aun!! i remember. umiyak pa nga ako nang araw na toh. i cried because of too much pressure. organizer, president, conductress, coordinator, student at human. kamusta naman ang life ko diba?!

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pero eto talaga ang nakaputol sa super haba kong pisi at napakagandang ngiti.. ehem!! =)
i got pissed-off dun sa isang oldie. (actually, matagal na akong asar dito, kasi sobra talga ang bibig.) unintentional or not, it was really rude for someone like her to say things that can hurt other people infront of everbody. oh, yes, thats what she did to me. napakataklesa ng dating. if only i wasn't in the church and my mom isn't there and taklesa ako just like her, i could have fought back. pero aun ako, in anyway possible, kinaya ko ung situation, nanahimik at dineadma. talking about being professional. bwahahaha. di ko kasi pwedeng ipakita na affected ako, ika nga, "the show must go on." kahit pa naiinis na ko.
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pero pagalis nila at naiwan ako sa aking "circle of friends", ngalngal ako. hahaha. ang hirap pala talagang makisama ng sabay sa matatanda at bata. ang hirap gumitna, ang hirap magpasensya, ang hirap kumilos. nakakasakal. nakakapraning... i cried really hard talaga. not knowing that my dad was still there. BOOM! huli! haha. pero OK lang kasi, he gave me a pretty good advice.
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"don't let that person get into you, its just one of those people that you will meet that will test your capabilities, your strength, your patience. kaya focus, don't mind them. show them that they can never ever let you down. show them who's the boss."
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haha. (dinagdag ko na yung last sentence. hahaha.)
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sabagay, tama dad ko. tama sya!!! kaya after nun, ngalngal times are over. ako ang conductress. kaya ako ang masusunod!! =)


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although i know that waiting for you means waiting for nothing
i still i want to spend my time doing it all over again...

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