depressed ako...

tic toc tic toc...

hahaha. yan ung sounds ko kanina...

bwisit!!! galing akong moa kanina at pagdating ko ng bahay im suffering from the so called "depression." ewan. pero naiinis ako, at naiinis ako sa nararamdaman ko. it hurts to know that he loves someone else. i don't know where it came from, the feeling is so sudden, unexpected. pero un talga ung bigla kong naramdaman. to the extent na naiiyak ako.... bwisit! tama ba yun?! cge, i admit, may nararamdaman ako sa kanya, i like him pero alam ko kung saan ako lulugar kaya i tried not to push thru with the feelings... kaya bakit ganto??!! RAWR.

tic toc tic toc

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i think i miss loving someone.
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ang gulo gulo ng isip ko.
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sana wag nya tong mabasa... kundi deadz ako. hahaha

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ps:

nafigure out ko na toh. =)

IT'S NOT LOVE!!!

reCOLLECTING memories.

Recollection....

ang model ko, si anne.

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-we went to Tagaste

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whew. dami nangyari dito, grabe. to make the story short, we had a speaker who discussed about being Christ-centered individual. tapos may pinagawang activity, ayoko sanang sumali kaya lang pinilit ako, at nagpapilit naman ako. kaya aun, afterwards, may mga teary eyes na kami. haha. bakit? kasi ung mga may mga kasamaan ng loob e nagusap at nagkaayos. like ung sa akin, we(pao & I) cleared the miscommunication that had happen between us. ok nman talaga kasi kami kaya lang may pakialamera. nweiz, we settled the past arguments, nilinaw ang lahat at aun, boom!! (OK NA KAMI), we hugged each other, namiss ko yata ang makatawanan at makausap sya. =) pero syempre there are some na hindi talaga kayang ayusin ng isang simpleng recollection. let's just say, some of us were not ready to forget at that moment. i have to admit, i'm one of them. masyadong masakit yung ginawa nya sa akin... and talking to her about forgiveness and friendship. malabong mangyari. magiging plastik ako kung gagawin ko yun.

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p.s:

ang cute nung dog na si charles... diba muy?! =)
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Figaro....

which one do you think is mine??

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-coffee break with anne & d'PPG. i tried cappuccino frost.

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PPG, which stands for Power Puff Girls, namely, raqz, muy & ochie. we stayed there in figaro while waiting for our sundo. haha. =) kakahiya naman tumambay lang, kaya anne & i decided to buy something. kaya aun, napilitan akong bumili ng figaro frost... bumili rin pala sina ochie & muy. nakitable na rin kami sa kanila. (pangit ng term) haha. hays, oozing ang prize. haha pero ok lang, at least naexperience kong pumunta sa figaro sa tagaytay. hahaha. nu pa ba? nameet ko si kc (tama ba?) ung kalove team ni raqs. haha.

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p.s:

i actually told anne that we should go to starbucks, its just across the street, e makulit ang lola ko!! =) tapos sa huli nagsisi, dapat daw nagstarbucks kami. kulit diba?! haha.

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Joy Ride at Tagaytay....

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6:30 pm pa lang yan. look how dark it is. napakafoggy talga...

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-Jp, K'egay, Onnie, Anne & Len... it was really foggy up there!!
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so, aun, our sundo arrived. dark green car. wala lang. haha. i wasn't expecting to see onnie's gf, len. both anne & i thinks that she is seemingly weird, though it was nice meeting her. nweiz, we headed right away to picnic groove. we had a hard time reaching the place because of the fog. it was really cold, damn cold.

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CLOSED!!!

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putek. sarado!!!! hahaha. tama ba yun! it was only 6:30pm tapos sarado na. grrr. talking about the intense happiness kasi tatambay kami sabay biglang laglag kasi sarado. hahaha.

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nagyakag na lang ako sa nearest fastfood kasi i need to "pee". hahaha. loka. nweiz, d2 ko naprove na she is weird... pati ba naman pagbili ng pagkain kailangan pang ipagpaalam kasi baka daw pagalitan sya. etc. etc. (sori, lotie, but she really is weird) (agree ka anne?) *wink*. after that, punta naman kami sa may starbucks, dun sa likod, stargazing kahit wala namang stars. palipas oras. then anne realized that we should have bought our drinks in starbucks instead sa figaro. ayaw kasi maniwala sa kin. too late. said na ang anda!! =(

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aun, after quite sometime nagkayakagan ng umuwi... siksikan kami sa car. weh, hina ng pakiramdam nung gurl!! ASAR!!

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p.s:

i get it, she's only 16.

lykah d unLYKAHble

upadating updatig....

pressured ako...

--late update na toh... waaaaaaaaah.

bakit nga ba ko pressured nung time na toh?? mmm....

aun!! i remember. umiyak pa nga ako nang araw na toh. i cried because of too much pressure. organizer, president, conductress, coordinator, student at human. kamusta naman ang life ko diba?!
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pero eto talaga ang nakaputol sa super haba kong pisi at napakagandang ngiti.. ehem!! =)
i got pissed-off dun sa isang oldie. (actually, matagal na akong asar dito, kasi sobra talga ang bibig.) unintentional or not, it was really rude for someone like her to say things that can hurt other people infront of everbody. oh, yes, thats what she did to me. napakataklesa ng dating. if only i wasn't in the church and my mom isn't there and taklesa ako just like her, i could have fought back. pero aun ako, in anyway possible, kinaya ko ung situation, nanahimik at dineadma. talking about being professional. bwahahaha. di ko kasi pwedeng ipakita na affected ako, ika nga, "the show must go on." kahit pa naiinis na ko.
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pero pagalis nila at naiwan ako sa aking "circle of friends", ngalngal ako. hahaha. ang hirap pala talagang makisama ng sabay sa matatanda at bata. ang hirap gumitna, ang hirap magpasensya, ang hirap kumilos. nakakasakal. nakakapraning... i cried really hard talaga. not knowing that my dad was still there. BOOM! huli! haha. pero OK lang kasi, he gave me a pretty good advice.
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"don't let that person get into you, its just one of those people that you will meet that will test your capabilities, your strength, your patience. kaya focus, don't mind them. show them that they can never ever let you down. show them who's the boss."

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haha. (dinagdag ko na yung last sentence. hahaha.)
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sabagay, tama dad ko. tama sya!!! kaya after nun, ngalngal times are over. ako ang conductress. kaya ako ang masusunod!! =)

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although i know that waiting for you means waiting for nothing
i still i want to spend my time doing it all over again...
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kaiBAGan

kalurkey ang mga groupmates ko... every duty week... (salamat sa trade fair, na love na love ni kabisyo...) each one of us buys a new bag. and guess what, we buy ( o bought? connect me if i'm wrong -melanie m) the same thing un nga lang in different colors. hahaha. adik.

xiao RED, muy BLUE, ycar PINK and mine's BLACK... =)

i wonder kung kanino bagay ang bag na toh.... hahaha

i love this bag talaga, kung tao lang sya... masasabihan ko sya ng "VERY WELL said" hahaha.

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weeee, after all this time, FINALLY, i have this black/silver puma bag!!!! (thank you once again sa trade fair.... )

i'm showing it off!!! haha

wala lang.... naloka lang ako. wala akong anda but still i bought this bag... bad talaga... ipinangutang ko pa yan... wehehe. by the way. 6 kaming merong ganyan sa room...

yan GREEN, raqz BROWN, muy BLUE, xiao VIOLET, ycar PINK. adik diba?! =)

nga pla, kindly visit this multiply site... according to the author i have the best bag... hahahaha. peace ycar!!!

http://yc06.multiply.com/journal/item/22

IQ test... ???

from shopz.... =)

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i don't think this is for real... hahaha. if i am such, then why am i acting stupid?? lolzzz

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at dahil dyan nasabi ni shopz na...

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"Kaya pala di mo na matamdaan ang feeling ng mainlove

xe you're much smarter now,

and love is just a state of mind, ang sabi ng iyong subconscious... "

I hate it when shitty things happen...

'cause it brushes away my ideas...
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making me an ill-humored person... =(
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i had a bad day... i was so angry and was ready to avenge my dear lola...
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buti nakatext ko si shopz... naging kalmado ako ng dahil sa kanya... thank you.