anu na nga bang pakiramdam ng inlove??

nyay. corny...

o well, i had this line in my mind for about a month now...
and i've been trying to remember how it feels to fall inlove.
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.masaya.malungkot.masakit.nakakakilig... nakakamiss!! lolzzz
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i know the feeling but i forgot how to feel it... =(
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im holding my heart and i'm trying my very best to keep it safe. and for 5 months now i think i am doing a great job. di ko rin naman kasi maaasikaso...
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and besides... i think i'm scared (sa wakas inadmit ko din).... scared of falling inlove with the wrong person. pero sabi ko nga sa sarili ko, tanga ko, kasi nga diba i've been wondering how it feels to be inlove again kaso ako naman tong pilit na lumalayo para maramdaman ko un. stupid diba?!
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nalabuan daw si shopz sa kin... parang gusto ko daw na ayaw... o well, gusto ko un maramdaman, kung pwede nga lang ung tipong ako lang magisa... kaso parang di ko din un mafifeel fully kasi ako lang magisa... hays, so sad. pati ako nalalabuan na....

Nakakamiss magBLOG!!

for the mean time, e2 muna....

HI kay shopz... cencia na di ako nakakatext... miss na kita kausap sobra!!! hope ur ok=)

HI kay muy, kasawa!! JOKE!! kita kits sa skul bukas, un e kung di ako aabsent... lolzzz haha. dala ka daw pancake sabi ni anne... magdadala kasi sya ng choco syrup.

HI kay kitel... hoi brukz... kelan ka nga ba pupunta??? magtext ka lang kapag may kailangan ka... wag lang pera... wahahaha


at sa iba na nakakakita nito... magHI naman kayo sa chatbox para alam kong nageexist kau... rock on!!

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my very first assist in the OR... =)

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weh, lakas ng loob ko dito. ung crush ko kasi na anesthesiologist ang doctor. ang ganda ganda talga nung ilong nya, ang tangos!!!! sabi ni muy he looks like jiampong daw.. hahaha.

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super saya grabe... twins ung baby nung pinaanak nmin. CS with BTL. feeling ko nurse na tlga ko. =) unforgettable experience tlga.
wala akong naramdaman na pressure, or whatsoever, as in!!! ang babait kasi nung mga nurse eventhough merong isa na masungit. hay basta, super SAYA ng feeling!!! =)

i want to do it again!!!! sabi ni xiao, para na kong si raymond... gusto e parating ako na lang... wehehehe. "di nmn"!!

Fever FEVER!!

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lagnat, ubo & sipon + hada = BED REST ng 5 Days... ASAR!!
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epekto ng may sakit.... =)

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nagpicture picture ako kasi, bored na bored na ko... e2 lang yung time na narealize ko na, "nakakapagod pala magpahinga" hahaha. pero di nga, promise, iba pala tlga ang feeling kapag BUM ka... napakahelpless. ang pangit ng feeling...

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habanag nakaratay ako sa kama e2 ang listahan ng mga ginawa ko:

1. nagutos ng nagutos na para akong baldado

2. nakapag linis pa ko ng nails.

3. naka french tip ang nails ko... galeng noh?!

4. nagpicture picture... kunwari nirape ako... or nabugbog ang effect

5. namomroblema kasi ayaw bumaba ang lagnat ko e may gala ako sa gabi. may concert akong pupuntahan.

6. kinulit ko ng todo ang mommy ko... gusto ko kasing maligo...

7. patakas akong nagsurf sa net... nagsims na din. =)

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yan lang ang mga ginawa ko... nakakalungkot diba?! and to make it worse nangyari lahat yan habang dapat ineenjoy ko ang 2 weeks sembreak ko. hmmmp!

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nakakatuwa magpakilig si God... SAKTO parati!!!! hehehe
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bait nga tlga ni God... as what i have said... bored na bored ako.. at SAKTO!! nagtext ang cute cutan kong crush. kaya lang malungkot sya pero ok lang at least dalawa na kami. nyahaha.

basta kinilig ako kanina, (parang grade 2 lang). un na yun!

the spotlight hates you now!!

my babies... and of corz, Chuckie!!!
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ATTENTION:

just in case, you have spotted a bigger piggy bank (just like d other 2 above) kindly contact me immediately!!! Thank you!!! =)
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nakarinig nanaman ako ng isang tsismis about me,
"kahit daw poste papatulan ko...."
matagal na syang chika pero ngaun lang nakarating sa kin... salamat sa mga taong nagsabi... =) na-aappriciate ko ang pagsabi nyo ng tungkol dyan sa akin... at salamat dahil pinagtatanggol nyo ko.=)
at pasalamat ka *bitch* at ngaun lang nakarating sa kin yung tungkol dyan kasi kung dati pa... di ako mangingiming patulan ka!!! below the belt ka na masyado...
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for your information, dapat sabihin mo yan sa mga kaibigan mo...
dahil kung parumihan ng pagkatao ang paguusapan, mas madumi kayo kaysa sa akin. mas marumi kayo kumpara sa aming lahat na sinisiraan nyo. isa ka talagang napakawalang kwentang tao. naaawa ako sa nangyayari sa buhay mo... lahat na lang ng tao ginagawan mo ng kwento. nakakaawa ka!!! too bad, wala ng may gustong makipagkaibigan sayo dahil alam na ng lahat kung anong klase kang tao. magbagong buhay ka na... tumatanda ka ng paurong...
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sayang, i have respected you and considered you as a close friend pa naman, but what have you done?! Backstabbing every one of us. starting all the rumors about me and my friends. what can you get from that?? NOTHING!!! kaya kung pwede itikom mo na yang bibig mo...
I PITY YOU SO MUCH! i will keep on praying for you, para maliwanagan ang isip mo.
(i do hope you can actually read this...)

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"be pityful to those who live their lives mocking other people.
because those people are alone & sad,
lacks guidance,
has no moral values
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most of all they are insecure."
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forgive me for the bitterness that i have shown... it was a very immature display of feelings. it just so happen na di ko na tlga maitago ang hurt na nararamdaman ko... this is not very me, talking shit about someone, writing about the anger that i have kept inside. naiinis lang tlga ako sa fact na she was (once) my friend.

BUS RIDE thoughts... (repost)

sometimes i like the idea of being alone because...
it is the only time wherein i can be sad.
it is the only time that i can cry my heart out.
it reminds me of reality.
it reminds me of who i really am.
it reminds me that in the end the only one left is just "me".

its the only time that i can be the "real me"...
(redundancy???)

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i don't exactly know the reason why i exist...
all i know is that i live in this world trying to cope up with life...
trying to protect the people i love...
trying to forgive the people who broke my heart...
trying to survive the struggles that i have right now...
trying to forget the past and not to be peevish with it.
trying to put my dreams into reality...
trying to enjoy everything that i have right now...
trying to open my heart again...

im just trying to be myself, trying to live life and be happy.

pop ups! BUM

hala... i want to write something kaya lang iba't ibang mga things ang nagppop sa utak ko... certain topics... thoughts... hays... so many things to write about. kaya lang dunno where to start, so i have decided, there will be no certain topics... just thoughts, parang pop-ups!!!
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---sorry, but recently i find some men as papansin, particularly this person who keeps on saying "please reply."
---my hearts having a difficulty smiling... heart beating??? hays...
---nosebleed katext si shops... i always need a dictionary beside me.
---naalala ko si jeypz, sad sya ngaun.
---naalala ko si kitz, hays, i hope i can see their booth.
---long quiz tom. NCM... shit, i have to study. karir mode dapat.
---may play bukas... oh no!! kailangan ko tuloy kausapin ang mga backstabber.
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*currently listening to "Mata" by Mojofly
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---"kamusta na, nandyan ka pa ba??" -a line from the song mata by mojofly
---mr. right!!! asan ka na ba???
---magloload ba ko o hindi...
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*hikab....* antok na ata ako....
*hikab ulit... *
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---nasesenti mode ako...
---ayun, naalala ko... mas trip ko talaga ang mga alternative & rock songs...
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*hikab...*
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---i feel like a jerk writing about the things thats been popping inside my head.
---BUM
---feeling ko pinagttripan lang ako ng friend ni vard.
---my eye is itchy.
---i hate backstabbers.... waaaaaaaah. puro na lang mga backstabber nasa isip ko.
---5 na ang paolo na kilala ko, bukod sa 4 na artista.
---wrap up, wrap, wrap up...
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*currently listening to "If We Fall In Love" by Yeng & RJ
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---"if we fall inlove" .... hays... this song makes me sad.
---aw.... now i'm thinking of writing a blog about this song.
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There will be no ordinary days for you
‘Cause there is someone that cares like I do
You will have no reason to be sad anymore
I am always ready with a smile
With just one glimpse of you
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You don’t have to search no more
‘Cause I am someone who will love you for sure <--- love this line!!!
So if we fall in love maybe we’ll sing this song as one
If we fall in love we can write a better song than this
If we fall in love we will have that melody in our head
If we fall in love anywhere with you would be a better place
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You can watch that movie in a different light
I will be right there beside you hugging you oh so tight
How can love feels so cold and empty again
And I will keep on holding on and won’t let go
Feel so good when you’re around
One smile from you and I just feel so bright
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*currently listening to "If You're Gone" by rob thomas
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---grrr... i just remembered someone... he made me sad!!!
---im out!! nawalan na ko ng gana.