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i am a flower quickly fading....

2008-11-01T10:41:00.000+08:00

nice song.. "who am i". its actually a christian song... very touchy. it actually made me realize that i am lost...

WHO AM I?

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Repeat Bridge & Chorus (2x)

I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Thy I am yours.
I am yours.

and that there is God... who cares for me. though i am so imperfect, yet He still chooses to keep me and look beyond my imperfections.

scriptwriting101: DONE!!

2008-10-15T18:25:00.002+08:00

finally, natapos na rin ang pagpapapirma ng pesteng OR/DR forms. hahaha.

kanina nipasa ko na ung forms ko, meaning il be graduating na tlga this coming Nov. 6, 2008. wuhoo!! grabe hirap ko, i mean naming lahat, sa form na yan. i have wasted(ooops) a lot of time, effort and money just to accomplish it.

time: kasi kailangan ko magkaroon ng extra duties here in cavite and manila puro graveyard shift pa. pamatay tlga! imbis na nagpapahinga ako, ayun duty to the max. grrr. eyebags to the max din. magwawaste pa nga pla ako ng time para icompile/sunugin/iframe ang mga nasayang na papel. tambak e. hahahaha

effort: kasi para kaming ewan na nagpaikot ikot around gen.tri and cavite city looking for our signatories. babad sa pc shop for editing and printing. 3 days pinaghirapan. reject!!! dito din lumabas ang talent ko sa pagsisinungaling este pagdedefend pala. hahaha. not to 4get ang pagcry ko sa sobrang pagkadepress dahil sa paulit ulit na pagreject ng aming butihing scriptwriter. (scriptwriter kasi kapag di nya gusto ang nakasulat sa form, ipapaulit nya sau un ng walang humpay hanggang sa makuntento sya) *wink* hehehe.

money: printing pa lang libo na. isama pa ang mga duty na pambayad utang na loob sa hospital na hindi nmn tlga dapat pagdutihan. (gastos sa van -pamasahe at food, libo again). shala ang dating. ang kick back, naubos dahil sa form na yan. so sad. hahaha. =)

sumatotal.... taas noo ko ng masasabi na makakapasa ako ng board exam dahil sa form palang naghirap na ko. hahahaha. cheers!!! =)

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tomorrow nga pla retreat nmn... undecided pa din ako. hindi daw sasama ang bestfriend ko na backstabber. sayang!! akala ko moment na naming 2. lol.

sasama ba ko o hindi?? kulet. hirap magicip. Zzzzzzzzz

SUBIC SUBIC..again!!

2008-09-17T05:55:00.000+08:00

as usual... magaantay uliy kayo. hahaha

Possible psychotic!!

2008-07-16T19:56:00.000+08:00

Late post nanaman.. as in SUPER LATE!

2008-06-08T13:00:00.003+08:00

yahoOOo!!! sa wakas, gawa na ang pc kong maligalig, makakapagpost na ko. hahaha. i know super late na tong post na toh, so what!! maselan kasi ako magpost, ayoko sa pc shop, madaming distractions at USI!!! hahaha.

my sister made this poster!! bonga diba?!! i blew her surprise, nagising kasi ako habang kinakabit nya yan... sabi ko...

"ay sori, tulog ulit ako, kunwari di kita nakita! hahaha."

kamusta nmn ang birthday ko?? super bad day!!! hahaha. may duty ako ang masama pa neto ay ang bagsik ng ci ko. haha. partially, masaya na din kasi ang inatupag ko naman ay alagaan ang batang ito na kabirthday ko. oha!
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nung MAY 14 nga pla birthday ko... hahaha.

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THANK YOU SA MGA NAKAALALA!!!

naksave lahat ng mga text msgs nyo!! hahaha

ANG BORING MAGING BUM!!

2008-06-07T17:19:00.000+08:00

Happt Birthday to MUAHHHH!!!!

2008-05-14T23:47:00.001+08:00

KITEL's GIFT

nothing really matters to me....

2008-04-19T23:15:00.010+08:00

actually, hindi yan totoo. a lot of things matters to me now. at ang scary ng pakiramdam.
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graduation ko... ang lapit na. tsk tsk. after nun, magiging iba na ang buhay ko. magiging mas seryoso at mas makulay. seryoso in the sense na, family first ang drama. mas makulay kasi kakaway na ko sa real world! halu! halu! (fuck) hahaha.

pasan ko ang daigdig. (title ng movie na applicable nmn sa kin, pero hindi naman sa OA or nega ako, wala lang, trip lang. haha.) katakot!! since eldest ako sa aming 3 na magkakapatid malamang sa kin ipapasa ang trono ng pagsupport sa aking mga minamahal na mga kapatid. pagpapaaral etc. at dahil mahal ko ang aking 'rents, ay aakuin ko na ang trono ng pagbuhay sa aking pamilya... pangarap ko kasi na kapag senoir citizen na sila (in w/c 5 yrs from now na lang un) ay hindi na sila magwowork at ang aatupagin na lang nila ay kumain at matulog sa iba't ibang lugar sa buong mundo. (worldtour lang naman. taas ng pangarap ko noh?) haha. sana makaya ko!! ay mali, ang nega ko pala. KAYA KO TOH!!!

1.) ang mahal na ng bilihin ngaun... natatakot ako para sa family ko, na 1 araw e magising ako na wala na kaming makain. ayoko nun. kaya magsisikap talaga ko. (lufet!!).
2.) at ang mahal na magkapamilya. (as in my own ha). hahaha. magastos. hahaha! ewan ko ba, pero parang naisuksok ko na ata sa king brain ang pagiging choosy sa gagawing papable. hindi naman sa nagdidiscriminate ako... pero ang akin lang, magpapapa ka ba na ikaw ang gagastos para sa kanya at ikaw ang bubuhay? NO WAY!. yabang e noh. haha. pero totoo naman diba.

love love love. EWAN! haha. nawalan na ako ng interest. wala akong time. bwahaha. feeling ko kasi hadlang lang sila sa aking pagasenso. joke!!! wala lang cguro talaga, ayoko lang. study flirt este first pala, boyfriend later. haha. pagkagraduate ko na lang. pagkagraduate nyo na lang. pagkanagkatrabaho ka na. para kung magkatechnical prob man at least graduate na!! hahahaha.

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ang dami kong namimiss na mga tao ngaun... tsk tsk....
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P.S:

nabasa ko na nga pla ung THE VALKRYIES by paulo coelho. at ang dami kong natutunan...
"expanding your horizon..." cool gawin. tinry ko. masarap sa pakiramdam. =)

"if you have done something wrong and had already ask for forgviness... forget about it. set yourself free. you have been forgiven, anyway."

---OoO---

"funny, how someone can make you weak...
just by simply thinking about him."

-lykes

IM SORRY I DIDN'T MEAN to FLOOD....

2008-04-12T17:29:00.000+08:00

.....= (

grrrr

2008-04-05T21:11:00.003+08:00

BUHAY PA KO... sira ang pc ko. KAINIS!!!! dumaan lang ako sa pc shop...

nweiz, HI kay IGNO... kay MIA, Kay MUY...., sa lahat ng nakakaalalang dumalaw, kahit hindi ako nakakasilip sa mga site nyo. thank you!!!!

MISS KO NA KAYO!!

silence means... sick.

2008-03-17T09:06:00.008+08:00

halu halu!! tagal kong nwala ah... hahaha. 1 week akong walang social life. im sick kasi, and guess what kung ano... chicken pox. huhuhu. kung kelan finals week saka pa ko nagkaroon. saklap diba?!! sabi nga ng aking friend hindi na daw ako kagandahan ngaun, sabi ko nmn, maganda pa din ako kahit my bulutong noh. lakas noh?! haha. nah, im just boosting myself. pero sa totoo lang, weird tong chicken pox ko kasi, 15 pcs lang lumabas at wala sa mukha. lucky na rin kahit papaano.. =) as of now, ok na ko, nakakahawa nga lang. haha

nakakadiri nmn tong post ko, tungkol sa sakit. hahaha.

ampanget ko dito... huhu

e2 ako habang may sakit... ung spots sa face ko ay pimples hindi cpox. saklap. haha

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sa lahat nga pla ng dumalaw, thank you! feeling ko nmn mamatay na ko... sa lahat ng di dumalaw, ok lang, di ko nmn kasi ipinagsabi. kakahiya kaya. (pero niblog ko. wapak.) haha. =)

special thanks nga pla kay, jd. u made me realize na masarap magkabulutong, foodtrip!! thank you sa instant Loreal na toner at Loreal na cream na pasalubong mo. feeling ko ang sosyal ng skin ko. hahaha. sana maging supplier kita... haha.

kay anne... we love you so much. the hell with him. he's NOTHING. ul get thru... we'll help you. we'll always be here.

kay eldrin & angello, thank you sa JAMS night. thanks sa panglilibre, alam ko nagulat kau kasi ang dami dami pla natin. haha. thanks for making my comeback a success. hahaha.

oha oha.. yabang e noh kala mo binili ko. haha

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Psyche 101:

difference between hallucination and illusion... and delusions

**hallucination:
auditory - hears voices that is not really present, commanding or condemning... etc
visual - sees a person or object that is not present

**illusion:
auditory - hearing voices in the wind
visual - seeing an object in a different form

**delusions:
eg. a person truly believes that he is superman, etc.

cheap post.

2008-03-04T00:01:00.007+08:00

lykes: jai, may ginagawa ka? pakitimpla mo nmn ako ng kape. thanx
jireh: kape? gabing gabi na kape?
lykes: oo, bakit ba? pampaantok ko yan e. 1 kutsarita ang ilagay mong kape, puno ha...
mommy: hoy elikah, anung 1 kutsarita? mas matapang ka pa magkape sa kin ngaun. jai. bawasan mo, gawin mo lang na kalahati.
lykes: walang lasa yun.
jireh: mommy, malaki kasi baso nya.
lykes: pakilagyan ng 3 scoop ng creamer.
mommy: anung tatlo? napakadami, dalawa lang noh.
jireh: mommy malaki kasi baso nya kumpara sa baso mo.
lykes: tapos 1 kutsaritang sugar...
mommy: ang tabang nyan

whatever. hahaha. dialogue namin yan kagabi...

3 big cups ang minimum ko per day. ganyan ako kaadik sa kape. nahawa na ata ako sa daddy ko, na ginagawang water ang coffee.
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ok, so baliktad ang epekto ng kape sa aking system. imbis na magising ako at mabuhayan ng dugo, nirerelax nito ang aking katwan. kumbaga, eto ang pampatulog ko. weird daw. sabi nilang lahat. at yung gatas nmn.. un ang nagpapagising sa akin. baliktad talaga. weird.

parang kape ang rock song. dahil ang rock song ay pampatulog ko, pamparelax. at kapag mga mellow nmn ang tugtog... nabwibwisit lang ako at hindi makatulog. baliktad. weirdo.

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so, why am i saying all of these?? wala lang, i just feel like i have to blog something. i feel so dumb, having nothing to write about. i call these a cheap post. kasi obviously, wala tlgang kabuluhan ang post na ito. niliitan ko ang font kasi, nahihiya ako.. hahahaha. nilamon na ata ng gym ang utak ko. hahaha. un pa nag isang kinaadikan ko ngaun ang pumunta sa gym. actually, nung valentines day, mas pinili ko pang makipagdate sa bakal kesa makipagdate sa lalaki. magbuhat ng bakal at tumingin sa mga papable. fyi, hindi ko ginagaya si jackie lou or si vina ok... hahaha. nififirm ko lang ang arms at abs ko. un lang. (bow) nagpapasexy ako... rawr!!

Cindy's thanksgiving day!

2008-02-29T23:20:00.007+08:00

---Feb. 23, 2008

as usual, late post again. grrr. naweweirdohan na ko sa date ng mga post ko. hahaha.

bago ang lahat, gusto ko munang i-greet ang aking friends na si
CINDY BROAS at JOYCE ANGELICA PANOPIO
ng CONGRATULATIONS!!!
professional P (patay) T (tao) na sila. nyahaha. jowkz, syempre
licensed Physical Therapist na sila!!! =)

kamusta naman un, naging semi-reunion ang nangyari. hahaha. being reunited with my high school tropa... wala talagang katulad ang saya. hehe. although maraming kulang, still me & my friends managed to celebrate cindy's day with lots of laughter. kulang ang 1 day para sa aming colorful chikahan!!

from d top: cindy & jackie
bottom: eula, ada & me

cindy: licensed PT na, kaya lang professional tambay for 1 year. hindi pa daw nya feel magwork... pasaway. hahaha. nagyayaya sa kanyang oath taking sa march 1. minsan ko 2ng nakita sa girbaud kasama si papa dj.

jackie: mascom grad... currently working sa ayala, sa isang bank. my bf na navy. sosyal!! haha. halos 3 yrs ko ding hindi nakita. biglang dumamba sa kin nung nakita ako. youngest sa tropa.

eula: bigtym toh, 3rd yr medical student sa uste, sabi nya trip nya daw maging neurologist. lufet!!! first time ko 2ng nakitang nagcommute nung araw na toh! haha. halos 4 yrs. kong di nakita kahit na 10 mins away lang ang lau sa kin.

ada: licensed electrical engineer. mayaman na daw toh sabi ni cindy. at ikakasal na kay cesar. wehehe. nabobored daw sya sa office kasi nakaupo lang sya, nagoautocad lang daw kasi sya. ahihi. lagi ko 2ng nakikita, syempre, heaven ko toh e. ahihi.

lykes: professional student. haha. shifter kasi ako from architecture to nursing. lapit noh?! haha. 4th yr bsn stud ako. (redundant). october 08 ako ggrad, hindi dahil sa bobo ako, kundi dahil october ako nagtransfer. abala ako ngaun sa thesis, at taga organize ng gala.

dun sa ibang tropa na wala... hmmp!! ewan!! luge!!! ok forgiven na kau, kaya lang dapat next time bawal absent kundi takwil na kau!! jowkz. haha. click THIS for the pixies.

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dineadma nya ko... ang lungkot naman....

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friends again

2008-02-26T12:24:00.008+08:00

---for Feb. 20, 2008

late blog na naman. tsk tsk.

i just want to share my happiness... bati na kasi kami nung best buddy ko. i'm so glad that wer ok. after 1 year na walang kibuan, finally. hahaha.

the funny thing is, is that we acted as if nothing happened. =) ganun naman tlga diba kapag magkaibigan, forgive and totally forget everything.

sabi ko sa kanya, "para kang tanga, inaway mo kasi ko."

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TRIVIA:

"vena amoris", is a latin name meaning, literally, "vein of love."

--a tradition established a belief that this vein ran directly from the heart to the fourth finger of the left hand. this theory has been cited in western cultures as one of the reasons the engagement ring and/or wedding ring was placed on the fourth finger, commonly known as, ring finger.

d devil and miss prym

2008-02-22T02:11:00.005+08:00

3 days ago, i finished reading this book by paulo coelho... it took me about 8-10 hrs to finish it... adik daw ako sabi nila!! hahaha. while reading it, the word blasphemy keeps on clouding my mind, but still i gave it a chance and finished reading it. both meryl and i agreed that somehow evil won in the end...

a clever book this is.

ang galing ng author. clever ang dating ng story. ang cute tlga ng pagkakakwento. try nyo basahin. devilish ang dating. good and evil. temptation. money. temptation. conscience. temptation. good life. temptation. doubt. temptation. trust.

p.s:
muy, thanx sa book. once again, akin na toh!! bwahaha.

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huhuhu.... i'm still waiting.
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Awards!!

2008-02-17T20:11:00.009+08:00

yey, DEEANNE gave me some awards!!! THANK YOU!!!
it feels good when someone recognizes your efforts.... *muah*

*ehem *ehem... here goes my speech... haha. (f na f ako... ) haha

>>>THE PIXIE DUST AWARD

this one sounds like i'm somewhere in neverland... para akong si wendy.. hehehe. nweiz, its nice to sprinkle love to everyone... =) pixie dust award to all of you!!

>>> MEDAL OF AWESOMENESS AWARD

every blogger is awesome. sharing everything that they have in their minds. =) everybody's allowed to grab this award!!

>>> THE BLOG BUDDIES AWARD

Hi to everyone who visits my blog, sa lahat ng sumisilip, bumubulong at kumakaway sa site ko, halu halu. weeeee. =)

>>>YOU ARE TAODALLY AWESOME AWARD

this one's a very cute award... i remember my highschool days... dissecting frogs. hahaha.

finally, i'm sharing all of these to everyone!! grab as many as you like.
SHARE TAU, then SHARE NYO SA IBA!!! =)
[f na f talga. hahaha]

4some.. nye..

2008-02-17T00:20:00.011+08:00

nangibang skul kami... we went to san sebastian college. it was sbc's foundation week pala. we watched kryz'z siblings perform. saya. lots of people. lots of headturners. lots of food. lots of everything that can't be seen in my school. hays... namiss ko mapua. dami gwapings. hahaha. nah, dami kasi activities. =)

i saw my highschool buddy, ira. its been 5 years since i last saw her in the flesh. lots of improvement. i didn't know that she knows how to dance. nweiz, she's good naman, looking great din. hays... namiss ko tuloy high school days ko... tsk.

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anne, joey, me & kryz

we're up to something... haha. anne, kryz and me... and soon, joey will be joining us. dami gwapo. haha. lately, gabi na ko umuuwi. buti na lang my mom's not asking wer i've been, kundi... deadz. haha. just kidding. =) she knows tlga. as for you peepz, secret muna, baka kasi maudlot. abangan nyo lang what it is. =) rawr!

for the mean time, enjoy na lang muna the PIXIES...

IQ test daw toh...

2008-02-09T23:15:00.004+08:00

naaliw ako, kaya sinagutan ko toh. its a forwarded text msg.
sagutan nyo bilis.... =)

complete the phrase given.
ex. 24 H in a D = ans: 24 Hours in a Day
(use your common sense)

1. 7 D a W
2. 12 M in a Y
3. 2 W of a B
4. 9 L of a C
5. 3 H of a C
6. 7 D S
7. 9 M of P
8. 8 T of an O
9. 7 C of the W
10. 10 Y in a D
11. 28 D in F
12. 6 S of a H
13. 10 C in a M
14. 7 W of the W
15. 5 F in a F
16. 366 D in a L Y
17. 7 C of the R
18. 60 S in a M
19. 26 L of the A
20. 4 C of a S

ENJOY!

for the answers:
just text me. at dun sa mga hindi alam ang # ko, just text me using 3jam. hehe.

fabella again!!!

2008-02-09T15:02:00.003+08:00

meryl aka muy & me, drinking nescafe ice. paborito!!!

bwahaha. ang tagal ko pala talaga magupdate ng blog. nweiz, sa pagkakaalala ko ay kasama namin dito ang aking former friend. hahaha. (bad girl) akala ko magiging sadness ang duty ko pero hindi pala, mas masya kaysa dati kasi ang inatupag lang namin ay umupo, magkwentuhan, maglakad lakad pagkatpos naming makipagagawan ng cord care cases. agawan kasi, epal ung ci ng ibang skul. dinadaya kami kami. buti na lang matapang ang ang aming ci, na co-worker nya at sinita sya ever. with lines na "hoy, *******, dinadaya mo kami!! wag kang madaya!!"

aun, naalala, ko nilunod nga pla namin ang aming self sa nescafe ice. sarap e. =)

dumaan pa nga pla kami sa bluewave para magbuyness ng food. kakagutom kasi sa byahe.

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"A wise girl kisses but never loves.
Listens but never believes.
and leaves
before she is left."

-sex & the city

Tuesdays w/ Morrie...

2008-02-09T15:01:00.002+08:00

This book made me cry....

it's all about enjoying life, making the most out of it, death, acceptance.. and love. very touchy 2ng book na toh. it has lots of quotable quotes. i can't forget this line... "When you're in bed, you're dead". this line makes me get up!! haha. asar. it reminds me of how lazy i am. haha.

try reading it, it will inspire you to go on living despite of all the hardships in life. it will make you realize that death is not to be feared but something to look forward 2.

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"If you're trying to show off for people at the top, foget it.
they will look down at you anyhow.

and if you're trying to show off for people at the bottom, forget it.
they will only envy you.

STATUS WILL GET YOU NOWHERE.
ONLY AN OPEN HEART WILL ALLOW YOU TO FLOAT
EQUALLY BETWEEN EVERYONE."

-morrie schwartz

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waiting, waiting, waiting... as always, as usual.
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february na!!!!!

2008-02-01T23:01:00.001+08:00

kaloka sa school today... everybody was bored. i have nothing to do but to sit and listen as my classmates do their reporting. (no offense.... nakinig nmn ako, di ko lang mapigilan na mainip.) and because of that super boredom, i have decided to make new friends!! oh, yes, dinagdagan ko ang mga kaibigan kong fingers!! and dating 2 naging 9!! yehey...hahaha.

BTW, i would like to thank tin-tin buntis for lending me her fingers. *wink*

from top (L-R): mad man, yosi guy, happy
bottom (L-R): C.hook, C.baby, bell & mr. shaolin. =)

hindi lang yan!! syempre ang aking ever dearest friend na si anne ay ginawang papel ang likod ko.. lolz. she drew a butterfly, the moon, the sun and some stars. tamang trip daw kasi i was showing off some skin, (oi, off-shoulder lang yun!!) at syempre ang ever gaya gaya na si ycar, nakidrawing din. wahahaha.

tamang boredom nga naman. hays....

kwentong kaibigan at kwentong ospital.

2008-01-30T20:14:00.000+08:00

zhainne, getting wacky after her meds...

Hospital bums... no sleep at all. kalungkot. (hahaha.) i was left taking care of my niece. so much, for a student nurse. hahaha. (again). taong hospital na nga ako tapos ung free day ko sa hospital pa din... kamusta nmn un daba?! =) no choice e, mabait akong tita, kaya holla hospital!! =)

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rion, johnny, helena & me... cast kami ng sweeny todd!

eto nmng pic na toh.. actually nung 28 pa toh, ngaun ko lang ibblog kasi especial ito.. (konek??) taken at trinoma. im with my friend rion. =) after 6 months yan. hahaha. mostly, ang mga ginawa namin ay magkwentuhan, umikot sa mall at ma-amaze sa sweeny todd, aka "the blood bath movie".

namiss ko tong taong toh... sarap kasi kasama at kakulitan.. (pinupuri kita sa net. haha). mga knock-knock jokes mo at mga kwentong nakakatuwa. sows... ok, bumebenta sa kin! hehehe. =) hays, wish ko lang nagvideoke tau. haha.

p.s.
rion, bagay sau ang pink, PROMISE!!

at sinong may sabing naghihirap ang mga pinoy?

2008-01-30T16:20:00.001+08:00

sa aking pagsusurf sa net... i found out na 3 of the world's top ten largest malls ay nasa pinas.. oh yes.. nasa pinas!! namely:

1.) Mall of Asia (3rd)
2.) SM Megamall (5th)
3.) SM North Edsa (9th)

e2 ung pic... sa forbes.com ko yan nakuha...

oha oha!! san ka pa diba?! proof ba ito na shopingero(pangit ng term) ang mga pinoy??? sige, OO, madaming naghihirap pero bakit ganun? hindi pa rin magkandamaliw ang mga tao sa pagpunta ng malls?! addiction nga naman sa pagshoshopping kahit walang ANDA!! tsk tsk. masamang ugali yan.

dialogue 1
anak: nay, wala na tayong ulam...
nanay: sige, mangutang ka na muna sa tindahan.

dialogue 2
misis: naku, mare, saka na kita babayaran ha, pasensiya ka na ha wala pa kong pera..
mare: mare naman, nung isang buwan nangako ka na babayaran mo ko ngaun....

dialogue 3:
misis: wala tayong pambayad sa kuryente at tubig
tatay: mangutang ka muna kay kumare....

mayamaya....

SM 3 DAYS SALE!!!!

hala, ayun ang mga walang pambili ng ulam, walang pambayad sa utang, walang pambayad sa kuryente at kapos sa pera sugod sa mga nagkukunwaring malls na may 3 days sale daw sila pero ang totoo e, kalahati pa rin nun ang totoong presyo. ung inipon na pera para sa pagkain e ipambibili na lang ng kung anung sa mall. AMININ!!! pero maraming ganyan dito sa pinas!! yan ba ang naghihirap?

based on my observation... marami akong kilalang mayayaman pero wag ka, adik sila sa tiange at hindi sa malls. at kung pumorma e parang wala lang, pambahay ang effect!! daig pa sila ng mga ibang mga nakikita at kakilala ko (beep beep sa mga natatamaan ko) na sa barong barong lang nakatira or alam ko na sakto lang ang kinikita ng magulang pero pinipilit pa rin ang sarili na makabili ng mga "signature clothes". reason nila: "for showing off purposes at to be in". masamang ugali yan.

ewan ko ba, pero anu nga ba ang nakukuha nila sa pagyayabang na yun?? 30 secs. na papuri? 10 secs. na hawak sa damit ng mga kaibigan. at pagkatapos nun?? wala na. deadma ka na ulit sa kanila.

(teka anu nga ba ang topic ko?? bwahaha. naghalo halo nnmn ako. tsk tsk!)

nweiz, hindi ko naman nilalahat ang mga pinoy. dahil marami pa rin nmn ang matitipid at wais sa buhay. suksok ng suksok at hindi mahilig magwaldas. sa mga taong ganun... i salute u. kahanga-hanga kayo at s mga tao naman na katulad ng mga namention ko, hoi, dre, magisip ok. hindi madaling kumita ng pera... kung wala nmn talagang dapat ipagyabang at hindi naman talaga kailangan at wala naman talagang pera, mag preno naman sa pagwawaldas! ikaw din ang kawawa sa huli... hindi ka kayang nuhayin ng kayabangan mo noh!! at sa mga mayayaman naman na ang hobby ay magwaldas, magpreno din kayo noh dahil hindi habang buhay mayaman kayo...

Sweeny Todd

2008-01-29T10:34:00.001+08:00

Sweeny Todd the Demon Barber from Fleet Street.... RAWR!!

yan ang pinanood namin ni rion nung nagkita kami kahapon.. hehe. honestly, nung una, wala akong alam tungkol sa sweeny todd... i just read the title (walang poster ha kasi sa tv screen kami nakatingin) tapos r-18... at first i tot bold ito. haha. joke. at nung andun na kami sa loob saka ko lang nalaman na ito pala ay isang musical movie. ASTIG!!

wala akong balak magmovie review pero sige magkwekwento na lang ako ng tungkol sa movie na ito...

sweeny todd is all about a barber who has nothing in mind but to take vengeance from a judge whom he thought had killed his wife. astig ung movie.. so brutal!!! i remember counting the throats that he had slashed. parang water springklerz ung neck... sabi nga ni rion "its so BLOODY!!" tapos ung mga dead body ginagawa nung partner in crime nya na si mrs. lovett na meat pie... rawr!! gruesome diba?! pero astig! as in astig talaga... d movie's great!! i didn't know johnny depp knows how to sing and helena, too. btw, severus snape of harry potter was there too, he played the role of the judge. medyo funny ung role nya (dom ang dating! haha) ok ung mga songs, d lyrics are nice. pinaka nagustuhan ko ung kanta nung kid...

Nothing's Gonna Harm You

nothing's gonna harm you
not while i'm around...
no one's gonna hurt you,
no one's gonna dare
others can desert you
not to worry, i'll be there

i may not be smart
but i ain't dumb
i can do it
i don't need to, i won't never
hide a thing from you...

(syempre chopped na yung lyrics) hahaha

e2 ung ticket...

here's the ticket nga pla... its a proof that i really watched it.. haha. and i scanned it para ipakita na nakapunta ako ng trinoma.. (first time ko dun e.. wahaha) nga pla: xiao, sa may north ave toh.. last station ng mrt. ahihi. *wink*

back to the movie... nagresearch nga pla ako about this. i found out that it was a hit broadway musical in 1979. been revived twice in broadway, won some tony's, and has more than 12 productions. impressive huh?! and it has a book too. for more info just click ME!!

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it's worth the wait
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si bulag at si liit...

2008-01-18T00:25:00.000+08:00

mga friends ko, habang naiinip ako sa klase... harhar

the two cute peepz are my new friends... haha. i got bored with my nursing research class. i have no one to talk too, that's why i created them. haha. i even named them as bulag and liit. kirarir ko talaga ang pagdraw sa kanila!!! =)

silang dalawa nmn ang mga human friends ko... hahaha

then, finally!! back to reality.. the two girls beside me are my closest friends!! anne's(left) my gf in SJC and kitel(right) my gf in mapua. after all these years eto ang first time na nagkakilala sila! yepee!! so saan pa nga ba kami gagala kundi sa SM. rawr!! we went straight to timezone. at nagvideoke!! we sang 12 songs, did some interpretative dance and nagpicture picture. it felt good having my two closest friends with me. it felt warm at sobrang saya!!

*kisses for both of them*
MmMmUuUuAaAaHhHhhhhhh

ang pc na may topak... (bow)

2008-01-11T15:12:00.000+08:00

dear diary,

i hate my computer... its not working the way it used 2. i'm having a hard time opening it because of its processor. i can't even surf the net for a very long time, because of that stupid generic host problem. i can't use my ym due to the virus that i now have in my computer. my anti-virus is down... my spyware is not good enough. i can't communicate with my friends here and abroad at hindi ko makachat ang crush ko... i can't finish my paper works. i can't download my favorite songs... i can't upload my pictures properly... hindi ako makablog ng ayos.

i am very sad. please help me dear diary...

love,
lykes

ps: sana may maantig ang puso at bigyan ako ng laptop... with a high speed processor at internet connection. complete package sana kung maaari... thank you..

BWAHAHAHA

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Woman, if u get ur heart broken by a man,
be strong enough to trust the hope of loving again.
don't hate the man 4 what he has done to you,
instead, feel sorry for him coz he's 2 weak to appreciate ol the good in you.

however, remember that the good man is not a myth.
all men love
but only the good ones will take a picture of you when you wake up n d morning
put it in a frame, hug you tyt & say,
"I NEVER THOUGHT I DESERVE SUCH GODDESS!!"

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funny, but i enjoy waiting.....
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BEACH!!! hahaha

2008-01-06T19:59:00.001+08:00

jose & me... (kainis nakapikit ako... =/...)

yan c jose, ang aking friend na umuwi galing guam. kundi dahil sa kanya walang reunion na mangyayari. hahaha. close kami nyan... =)

ang peace sign na usong uso. (randy, ge, me, ada & chuck)

sa villa buenaflor yan. naku, kita pa ung redhorse.. patay ako. hahaha. ung iba, camera shy, kaya wala sa pic. ayun c ge, sya ang may ari nung resort, kung wala sya malamang palaboy kami. or baka nasa bahay kami nina vic or bahay ni ge. =). hahaha. they are my high school tropa. super miss ko na sila.. grabe!! pwera si randy, kasma ko yan nung 1 linggo e. hahaha. nanlibre. weee.

a yuletide diary.

2008-01-03T01:10:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS

AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

--NEW YEARS EVE

family picture... kaso tulog ung isa. =(

Khean and Me... tulog si jhai

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---NEW YEARS PARTY (Dec. 30, 2007)
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LyCOF

Lykes Circle Of Friends. hehehe

---CYF Christmas Costume Party (Dec. 28, 2007)

Jhai & Rica... d'super twenkz.

it was held at pascam Church of Christ. nagdecide ang mga officers na magkaroon grand fellowship.. haha. actually hindi nmn tlga bongazious un. nagcostume lang kami. un lang un. hahaha.

---CHRISTMAS DAY

la vindetta... lolz

after ng Christmas service. nagkuhanan kami ng pictures. ako, noemi, jireh, jonelle, at c rica. napagtripan lang namin para may remembrance kami. =)

---CHILDRENS CHRISTMAS PRESENTATION (Dec. 24, 2007)

eto pa ang isa sa mga pinagkaabalahan ko, ang magturo ng mga kids para sa araw na ito. hahaha. yearly kasi nagppresent talga ung mga kids sa church sa namin at dahil ako ang maganda nilang ma'am ako ang responsible for their presentations. syempre, the typical play na ang theme e. Jesus is Born, pero syempre, dahil creative ako, (hahaha) ginawa ko syang musical play!! oha, oha! with matching costumes yan... angels, shepherds, wisemen, villagers, mary and joseph. kalurkey nga lang lang magturo, kasi bago kami makapagstart isang katerbang "children, tama na ang takbuhan magcstart na tayo... ", "wag na kayong maingay", "behave na po kayo.", "sige na, ikaw na si mary, please...", "matatapos na po.", "asan na si ano..." ang lines ko. at habang nagppractice na kami, isang katerbang "teacher, anong line ko?", "sino ako?", "gusto ko angel ako.", "ayoko nyan", "nangangalay na ko", "uwi na tayo teacher" "may i go to the washroom", "nauuhaw ako" ang drama nila. at sa wakas, THANK YOU LORD, nung nagpresent sila ay ok na ok naman, kahit medyo may sablay ok lang, kasi nagenjoy naman ung mga nanood at syempre nagenjoy ung mga kids. =)

---CAROLING NIGHT (Dec. 23, 2007)

nangaroling kami para may ipambili ng chicha!!! hahaha. joke lang.

nangaroling talaga kami para magkaroon ng fund ang aming cyf. excuse me lang, hindi house to house as in lahat ng bahay ha, house to house in the sense na puro bahay lang ng mga kasama namin sa church. mga 10 houses lang. puro mga taga d2 lang sa may amin. syempre the usual christmas carols ang kinanta namin, plus, nagadd pa kami ng mga songs n pang choir talaga. hanep!! nakakapaos. haha. kakapagod pero syempre ok lang kasi, 7,300 naman ang kapalit ng pinaghirapan namin. oh, yes!! 7, 300 sa 10 houses lang. ok diba?!! sarap mangaroling diba, kaya nga next year, uulitin namin un... tiba tiba ulit!! hahaha

---CHURCH ANNIVERSARY (Dec. 16, 2007)

our Church

hays, this is the very first event na pinagkaabalahan ko bago mag vacation. its hard pala to become an organizer, kalurkey. haha. nweiz, all i can say is that all the hardships had paid off. sulit na sulit talaga. a new experience for me organizing a bigger event (more or less 110 + guests). thank you sa aking committee who supported and helped me all through out. never could have i done it better without you guys... thanx a lot!!! =) muah muah muah.

depressed ako...

2007-12-30T00:54:00.000+08:00

tic toc tic toc...

hahaha. yan ung sounds ko kanina...

bwisit!!! galing akong moa kanina at pagdating ko ng bahay im suffering from the so called "depression." ewan. pero naiinis ako, at naiinis ako sa nararamdaman ko. it hurts to know that he loves someone else. i don't know where it came from, the feeling is so sudden, unexpected. pero un talga ung bigla kong naramdaman. to the extent na naiiyak ako.... bwisit! tama ba yun?! cge, i admit, may nararamdaman ako sa kanya, i like him pero alam ko kung saan ako lulugar kaya i tried not to push thru with the feelings... kaya bakit ganto??!! RAWR.

tic toc tic toc

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i think i miss loving someone.
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ang gulo gulo ng isip ko.
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sana wag nya tong mabasa... kundi deadz ako. hahaha

ps:

nafigure out ko na toh. =)

IT'S NOT LOVE!!!

reCOLLECTING memories.

2007-12-10T23:19:00.002+08:00

Recollection....

ang model ko, si anne.

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-we went to Tagaste

whew. dami nangyari dito, grabe. to make the story short, we had a speaker who discussed about being Christ-centered individual. tapos may pinagawang activity, ayoko sanang sumali kaya lang pinilit ako, at nagpapilit naman ako. kaya aun, afterwards, may mga teary eyes na kami. haha. bakit? kasi ung mga may mga kasamaan ng loob e nagusap at nagkaayos. like ung sa akin, we(pao & I) cleared the miscommunication that had happen between us. ok nman talaga kasi kami kaya lang may pakialamera. nweiz, we settled the past arguments, nilinaw ang lahat at aun, boom!! (OK NA KAMI), we hugged each other, namiss ko yata ang makatawanan at makausap sya. =) pero syempre there are some na hindi talaga kayang ayusin ng isang simpleng recollection. let's just say, some of us were not ready to forget at that moment. i have to admit, i'm one of them. masyadong masakit yung ginawa nya sa akin... and talking to her about forgiveness and friendship. malabong mangyari. magiging plastik ako kung gagawin ko yun.

p.s:

ang cute nung dog na si charles... diba muy?! =)
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Figaro....

which one do you think is mine??

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-coffee break with anne & d'PPG. i tried cappuccino frost.

PPG, which stands for Power Puff Girls, namely, raqz, muy & ochie. we stayed there in figaro while waiting for our sundo. haha. =) kakahiya naman tumambay lang, kaya anne & i decided to buy something. kaya aun, napilitan akong bumili ng figaro frost... bumili rin pala sina ochie & muy. nakitable na rin kami sa kanila. (pangit ng term) haha. hays, oozing ang prize. haha pero ok lang, at least naexperience kong pumunta sa figaro sa tagaytay. hahaha. nu pa ba? nameet ko si kc (tama ba?) ung kalove team ni raqs. haha.

p.s:

i actually told anne that we should go to starbucks, its just across the street, e makulit ang lola ko!! =) tapos sa huli nagsisi, dapat daw nagstarbucks kami. kulit diba?! haha.

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Joy Ride at Tagaytay....

6:30 pm pa lang yan. look how dark it is. napakafoggy talga...

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-Jp, K'egay, Onnie, Anne & Len... it was really foggy up there!!
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so, aun, our sundo arrived. dark green car. wala lang. haha. i wasn't expecting to see onnie's gf, len. both anne & i thinks that she is seemingly weird, though it was nice meeting her. nweiz, we headed right away to picnic groove. we had a hard time reaching the place because of the fog. it was really cold, damn cold.

CLOSED!!!

putek. sarado!!!! hahaha. tama ba yun! it was only 6:30pm tapos sarado na. grrr. talking about the intense happiness kasi tatambay kami sabay biglang laglag kasi sarado. hahaha.

nagyakag na lang ako sa nearest fastfood kasi i need to "pee". hahaha. loka. nweiz, d2 ko naprove na she is weird... pati ba naman pagbili ng pagkain kailangan pang ipagpaalam kasi baka daw pagalitan sya. etc. etc. (sori, lotie, but she really is weird) (agree ka anne?) *wink*. after that, punta naman kami sa may starbucks, dun sa likod, stargazing kahit wala namang stars. palipas oras. then anne realized that we should have bought our drinks in starbucks instead sa figaro. ayaw kasi maniwala sa kin. too late. said na ang anda!! =(

aun, after quite sometime nagkayakagan ng umuwi... siksikan kami sa car. weh, hina ng pakiramdam nung gurl!! ASAR!!

p.s:

i get it, she's only 16.

lykah d unLYKAHble

2007-12-09T01:39:00.001+08:00

upadating updatig....

pressured ako...

2007-12-09T00:19:00.000+08:00

--late update na toh... waaaaaaaaah.

bakit nga ba ko pressured nung time na toh?? mmm....

aun!! i remember. umiyak pa nga ako nang araw na toh. i cried because of too much pressure. organizer, president, conductress, coordinator, student at human. kamusta naman ang life ko diba?!
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pero eto talaga ang nakaputol sa super haba kong pisi at napakagandang ngiti.. ehem!! =)
i got pissed-off dun sa isang oldie. (actually, matagal na akong asar dito, kasi sobra talga ang bibig.) unintentional or not, it was really rude for someone like her to say things that can hurt other people infront of everbody. oh, yes, thats what she did to me. napakataklesa ng dating. if only i wasn't in the church and my mom isn't there and taklesa ako just like her, i could have fought back. pero aun ako, in anyway possible, kinaya ko ung situation, nanahimik at dineadma. talking about being professional. bwahahaha. di ko kasi pwedeng ipakita na affected ako, ika nga, "the show must go on." kahit pa naiinis na ko.
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pero pagalis nila at naiwan ako sa aking "circle of friends", ngalngal ako. hahaha. ang hirap pala talagang makisama ng sabay sa matatanda at bata. ang hirap gumitna, ang hirap magpasensya, ang hirap kumilos. nakakasakal. nakakapraning... i cried really hard talaga. not knowing that my dad was still there. BOOM! huli! haha. pero OK lang kasi, he gave me a pretty good advice.
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"don't let that person get into you, its just one of those people that you will meet that will test your capabilities, your strength, your patience. kaya focus, don't mind them. show them that they can never ever let you down. show them who's the boss."

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haha. (dinagdag ko na yung last sentence. hahaha.)
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sabagay, tama dad ko. tama sya!!! kaya after nun, ngalngal times are over. ako ang conductress. kaya ako ang masusunod!! =)

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although i know that waiting for you means waiting for nothing
i still i want to spend my time doing it all over again...
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kaiBAGan

2007-12-09T00:07:00.000+08:00

kalurkey ang mga groupmates ko... every duty week... (salamat sa trade fair, na love na love ni kabisyo...) each one of us buys a new bag. and guess what, we buy ( o bought? connect me if i'm wrong -melanie m) the same thing un nga lang in different colors. hahaha. adik.

xiao RED, muy BLUE, ycar PINK and mine's BLACK... =)

i wonder kung kanino bagay ang bag na toh.... hahaha

i love this bag talaga, kung tao lang sya... masasabihan ko sya ng "VERY WELL said" hahaha.

-0o0-

weeee, after all this time, FINALLY, i have this black/silver puma bag!!!! (thank you once again sa trade fair.... )

i'm showing it off!!! haha

wala lang.... naloka lang ako. wala akong anda but still i bought this bag... bad talaga... ipinangutang ko pa yan... wehehe. by the way. 6 kaming merong ganyan sa room...

yan GREEN, raqz BROWN, muy BLUE, xiao VIOLET, ycar PINK. adik diba?! =)

nga pla, kindly visit this multiply site... according to the author i have the best bag... hahahaha. peace ycar!!!

http://yc06.multiply.com/journal/item/22

IQ test... ???

2007-12-03T23:48:00.001+08:00

from shopz.... =)

i don't think this is for real... hahaha. if i am such, then why am i acting stupid?? lolzzz

at dahil dyan nasabi ni shopz na...

"Kaya pala di mo na matamdaan ang feeling ng mainlove

xe you're much smarter now,

and love is just a state of mind, ang sabi ng iyong subconscious... "

I hate it when shitty things happen...

2007-12-03T21:48:00.000+08:00

'cause it brushes away my ideas...
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making me an ill-humored person... =(
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i had a bad day... i was so angry and was ready to avenge my dear lola...
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buti nakatext ko si shopz... naging kalmado ako ng dahil sa kanya... thank you.

anu na nga bang pakiramdam ng inlove??

2007-11-29T08:53:00.000+08:00

nyay. corny...

o well, i had this line in my mind for about a month now...
and i've been trying to remember how it feels to fall inlove.
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.masaya.malungkot.masakit.nakakakilig... nakakamiss!! lolzzz
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i know the feeling but i forgot how to feel it... =(
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im holding my heart and i'm trying my very best to keep it safe. and for 5 months now i think i am doing a great job. di ko rin naman kasi maaasikaso...
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and besides... i think i'm scared (sa wakas inadmit ko din).... scared of falling inlove with the wrong person. pero sabi ko nga sa sarili ko, tanga ko, kasi nga diba i've been wondering how it feels to be inlove again kaso ako naman tong pilit na lumalayo para maramdaman ko un. stupid diba?!
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nalabuan daw si shopz sa kin... parang gusto ko daw na ayaw... o well, gusto ko un maramdaman, kung pwede nga lang ung tipong ako lang magisa... kaso parang di ko din un mafifeel fully kasi ako lang magisa... hays, so sad. pati ako nalalabuan na....

Nakakamiss magBLOG!!

2007-11-26T22:07:00.000+08:00

for the mean time, e2 muna....

HI kay shopz... cencia na di ako nakakatext... miss na kita kausap sobra!!! hope ur ok=)

HI kay muy, kasawa!! JOKE!! kita kits sa skul bukas, un e kung di ako aabsent... lolzzz haha. dala ka daw pancake sabi ni anne... magdadala kasi sya ng choco syrup.

HI kay kitel... hoi brukz... kelan ka nga ba pupunta??? magtext ka lang kapag may kailangan ka... wag lang pera... wahahaha

at sa iba na nakakakita nito... magHI naman kayo sa chatbox para alam kong nageexist kau... rock on!!

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my very first assist in the OR... =)

weh, lakas ng loob ko dito. ung crush ko kasi na anesthesiologist ang doctor. ang ganda ganda talga nung ilong nya, ang tangos!!!! sabi ni muy he looks like jiampong daw.. hahaha.

super saya grabe... twins ung baby nung pinaanak nmin. CS with BTL. feeling ko nurse na tlga ko. =) unforgettable experience tlga.
wala akong naramdaman na pressure, or whatsoever, as in!!! ang babait kasi nung mga nurse eventhough merong isa na masungit. hay basta, super SAYA ng feeling!!! =)

i want to do it again!!!! sabi ni xiao, para na kong si raymond... gusto e parating ako na lang... wehehehe. "di nmn"!!

Fever FEVER!!

2007-10-27T23:31:00.000+08:00

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lagnat, ubo & sipon + hada = BED REST ng 5 Days... ASAR!!
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epekto ng may sakit.... =)

nagpicture picture ako kasi, bored na bored na ko... e2 lang yung time na narealize ko na, "nakakapagod pala magpahinga" hahaha. pero di nga, promise, iba pala tlga ang feeling kapag BUM ka... napakahelpless. ang pangit ng feeling...

habanag nakaratay ako sa kama e2 ang listahan ng mga ginawa ko:

1. nagutos ng nagutos na para akong baldado

2. nakapag linis pa ko ng nails.

3. naka french tip ang nails ko... galeng noh?!

4. nagpicture picture... kunwari nirape ako... or nabugbog ang effect

5. namomroblema kasi ayaw bumaba ang lagnat ko e may gala ako sa gabi. may concert akong pupuntahan.

6. kinulit ko ng todo ang mommy ko... gusto ko kasing maligo...

7. patakas akong nagsurf sa net... nagsims na din. =)

yan lang ang mga ginawa ko... nakakalungkot diba?! and to make it worse nangyari lahat yan habang dapat ineenjoy ko ang 2 weeks sembreak ko. hmmmp!

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nakakatuwa magpakilig si God... SAKTO parati!!!! hehehe
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bait nga tlga ni God... as what i have said... bored na bored ako.. at SAKTO!! nagtext ang cute cutan kong crush. kaya lang malungkot sya pero ok lang at least dalawa na kami. nyahaha.

basta kinilig ako kanina, (parang grade 2 lang). un na yun!

the spotlight hates you now!!

2007-10-18T23:43:00.000+08:00

my babies... and of corz, Chuckie!!!
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ATTENTION:

just in case, you have spotted a bigger piggy bank (just like d other 2 above) kindly contact me immediately!!! Thank you!!! =)
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nakarinig nanaman ako ng isang tsismis about me,
"kahit daw poste papatulan ko...."
matagal na syang chika pero ngaun lang nakarating sa kin... salamat sa mga taong nagsabi... =) na-aappriciate ko ang pagsabi nyo ng tungkol dyan sa akin... at salamat dahil pinagtatanggol nyo ko.=)
at pasalamat ka *bitch* at ngaun lang nakarating sa kin yung tungkol dyan kasi kung dati pa... di ako mangingiming patulan ka!!! below the belt ka na masyado...
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for your information, dapat sabihin mo yan sa mga kaibigan mo...
dahil kung parumihan ng pagkatao ang paguusapan, mas madumi kayo kaysa sa akin. mas marumi kayo kumpara sa aming lahat na sinisiraan nyo. isa ka talagang napakawalang kwentang tao. naaawa ako sa nangyayari sa buhay mo... lahat na lang ng tao ginagawan mo ng kwento. nakakaawa ka!!! too bad, wala ng may gustong makipagkaibigan sayo dahil alam na ng lahat kung anong klase kang tao. magbagong buhay ka na... tumatanda ka ng paurong...
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sayang, i have respected you and considered you as a close friend pa naman, but what have you done?! Backstabbing every one of us. starting all the rumors about me and my friends. what can you get from that?? NOTHING!!! kaya kung pwede itikom mo na yang bibig mo...
I PITY YOU SO MUCH! i will keep on praying for you, para maliwanagan ang isip mo.
(i do hope you can actually read this...)

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"be pityful to those who live their lives mocking other people.
because those people are alone & sad,
lacks guidance,
has no moral values
&
most of all they are insecure."
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---o0o---0o0---
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forgive me for the bitterness that i have shown... it was a very immature display of feelings. it just so happen na di ko na tlga maitago ang hurt na nararamdaman ko... this is not very me, talking shit about someone, writing about the anger that i have kept inside. naiinis lang tlga ako sa fact na she was (once) my friend.

BUS RIDE thoughts... (repost)

2007-10-15T12:22:00.000+08:00

sometimes i like the idea of being alone because...
it is the only time wherein i can be sad.
it is the only time that i can cry my heart out.
it reminds me of reality.
it reminds me of who i really am.
it reminds me that in the end the only one left is just "me".

its the only time that i can be the "real me"...
(redundancy???)

--- * --- * ---

i don't exactly know the reason why i exist...
all i know is that i live in this world trying to cope up with life...
trying to protect the people i love...
trying to forgive the people who broke my heart...
trying to survive the struggles that i have right now...
trying to forget the past and not to be peevish with it.
trying to put my dreams into reality...
trying to enjoy everything that i have right now...
trying to open my heart again...

im just trying to be myself, trying to live life and be happy.

pop ups! BUM

2007-10-08T19:57:00.000+08:00

hala... i want to write something kaya lang iba't ibang mga things ang nagppop sa utak ko... certain topics... thoughts... hays... so many things to write about. kaya lang dunno where to start, so i have decided, there will be no certain topics... just thoughts, parang pop-ups!!!
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---sorry, but recently i find some men as papansin, particularly this person who keeps on saying "please reply."
---my hearts having a difficulty smiling... heart beating??? hays...
---nosebleed katext si shops... i always need a dictionary beside me.
---naalala ko si jeypz, sad sya ngaun.
---naalala ko si kitz, hays, i hope i can see their booth.
---long quiz tom. NCM... shit, i have to study. karir mode dapat.
---may play bukas... oh no!! kailangan ko tuloy kausapin ang mga backstabber.
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*currently listening to "Mata" by Mojofly
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---"kamusta na, nandyan ka pa ba??" -a line from the song mata by mojofly
---mr. right!!! asan ka na ba???
---magloload ba ko o hindi...
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*hikab....* antok na ata ako....
*hikab ulit... *
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---nasesenti mode ako...
---ayun, naalala ko... mas trip ko talaga ang mga alternative & rock songs...
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*hikab...*
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---i feel like a jerk writing about the things thats been popping inside my head.
---BUM
---feeling ko pinagttripan lang ako ng friend ni vard.
---my eye is itchy.
---i hate backstabbers.... waaaaaaaah. puro na lang mga backstabber nasa isip ko.
---5 na ang paolo na kilala ko, bukod sa 4 na artista.
---wrap up, wrap, wrap up...
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*currently listening to "If We Fall In Love" by Yeng & RJ
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---"if we fall inlove" .... hays... this song makes me sad.
---aw.... now i'm thinking of writing a blog about this song.
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There will be no ordinary days for you
‘Cause there is someone that cares like I do
You will have no reason to be sad anymore
I am always ready with a smile
With just one glimpse of you
.
You don’t have to search no more
‘Cause I am someone who will love you for sure <--- love this line!!!
So if we fall in love maybe we’ll sing this song as one
If we fall in love we can write a better song than this
If we fall in love we will have that melody in our head
If we fall in love anywhere with you would be a better place
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You can watch that movie in a different light
I will be right there beside you hugging you oh so tight
How can love feels so cold and empty again
And I will keep on holding on and won’t let go
Feel so good when you’re around
One smile from you and I just feel so bright
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*currently listening to "If You're Gone" by rob thomas
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---grrr... i just remembered someone... he made me sad!!!
---im out!! nawalan na ko ng gana.

FREE spa treatments!!!

2007-10-08T18:08:00.000+08:00

---for Oct. 3, 2007

promoting

"NURTURE SPA"

located at Tagaytay City

waiting area...

FINALLY, natuloy din ang free spa!!! weeeeee. yeah, you've read it right... free spa!!! weeee. courtesy of my super mabait na friend. thanks Jhun!!!

he's been inviting me last sept. pa, but sad to say fully booked ang sked ko, kaya eto, a month after natuloy din... =) the best relaxation technique, whole body massage called "Aruga", foot spa (astig, our feet was wrapped in banana leaves... parang suman lang! haha) and "Marikit" facial. my mom, anne and i had a great time, sobra!! meron dapat body scrub, kaya lang gabi na.... SAYANG!!! hahaha.

jhun, THANK YOU THANK YOU!! sa uulitin!! haha.

muy... peace tayo!! biglaan un e... tsaka kulang powerpuff pagnagkataon.. hehe.

-0o0-

Foot Spa pictures...

me & my mom...

anne. =)

puro footspa pics lang.... censored na kasi kapag kasama ung during the massage... hahaha

for more pix's visit http://chixzy.multiply.com/

-0o0-

quotable quote...

"Letting go is like getting a tooth pulled out by a dentist...

Pull it out, you're relieved. But how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was? probably, a hundred times a day. just becacuase it's not hurting it doesn't mean you don't notice it. it leaves a gap & sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly.

should you have kept the tooth instead? Nah, because it was causing you so much pain."

love stored inside can make you sick!!

2007-09-26T18:15:00.000+08:00

it is true.. ABSOLUTELY TRUE!!!

so, why keep it when you actually have all the chance in the world to let him/her know your true feelings?!?!

be proud of the love that you have inside!!!

keeping it, will do you no good. admitting it though may not do you any good, because of rejection, but at least the what ifs will be answered and at the same time you became true to yourself.

being rejected may be hard to accept, but it is much harder living your life knowing that you have all the chance in the world but you just blew it, that you just trashed it because you're too scared. tapos malalaman mo in d future na at that very moment he/she feels the same way about you. AW. ang saklap!! parang dinurog ang puso mo... mamatay matay ka sa kakatanggi at kakatago tapos mahal ka din pala niya!! RAWR!!

(laters!! gutom na ko... haha)

San Lazaro.... rawr!!

2007-09-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

sincere 2 (not sure kung 2 nga... hehe)

Thank you sa Sincere 2 & 3 and kay Ma'am Barron!!
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thanks to d ff:
Ineng, TP, Rowie, Nino, Jeff, Rina, Marg, Girlie, Jem, Jamie, Cassy
.
I had so much fun... Never had a moment of loneliness with you guys. You never made me feel that i was just a free lancer. hehe. love ko na kayo! naks! (hehehe. love ko pa rin syempre ung KALAHATI ng Loyal 3)

watch out for more details...!!!

Church Anniversaries... (San Antonio & Santol)

2007-09-19T10:49:00.000+08:00

"Give a little love & it all comes back to you...

we're all goin' to be remembered for the things we SAY and DO."

-coke

our so called... "musical instruments"

hahaha. i had fun blowing the coke bottles... i always thought it was kind of silly but i still did it, and i actually had so much fun.

we did this "bottle blowing" (as ralph called it) during the talentong kristiyano... we played "Tayo Sana'y Manatili." and we did it for the glory of the Lord.

it was a new experience for all of us. At first we had a hard time producing sounds... ika nga, "practice makes perfect" and aun... tadah!! kahit saan kami mapunta basta may bote, sige ihip!! hahaha. na-adik na!! we are actually planning on doing it again on our church anniversary this coming december, kaya WATCH OUT!!

taken @ Santol COC... its the Church 19th Anniversary... f8's not in d pic.

MY BLOWMATES (huh???) ARE:

DO & FA --> Gracelyn

RE & SOL --> Ayie

MI & higher MI --> Rica

LA & higher RE --> Meeeh

TI --> Biboy

higher DO --> Faith

higher DO sub. --> Jonelle

. HAPPY 19th ANNIVERSARY SANTOL CHURCH of CHRIST

the word CHRIST in the picture was spelled out with hands... lots of hands

(too busy to post...)

more details... coming up!! hehe

visas... visas..VISAS!!

2007-09-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

the other day... i was so busy... pero isa lang ang nakapagpatumba sa kin. ang movie na Armageddon. this movie never fails to make me cry... /sob.

the funny thing is, i just realized that i always wish the same thing after seeing this movie...

"I wish to have someone watching armageddon beside me."

it may sound shallow but what i really meant by those words are...
" i wish to have someone whom i can cry my heart out. someone who will not leave my side and watch me until i fall asleep. someone who doesn't want to close his eyes because he doesn't want to miss anything." (shallow pa din)

parang kanta lang... yeah, yeah. kanta nga!! this movie made me love aerosmiths
"I Don't Want To Miss A Thing" (no further explanations... its obvious why!)

putchang movie toh! everytime i finished watching it, it always makes me long to have someone. kaya lang syempre, erase, erase, erase. bad idea!! hadlang sa mga pangarap ko!! (nyay!! JOKE! hahaha) hays... ganda tlga ng cleft chin ni Ben Affleck!

-=0o0=-

i wish someone, just one, in this world will be able to understand how i feel...

someone who will comfort me...

someone who will make me feel pure bliss...

someone who will give me importance...

someone who is willing to give the time just to be with me...

someone who will love me as me...

i wish that, that someone exists...

(ang labo ko!!! contradicting mga pinagsasasabi ko!!!) haha

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im done denying visas... not really!
im done applying... i really haven't done that.
im done processing papers... im not having fun processing it!
im done reconsidering denied visas... il just deny it all over again.
incomplete papers... go home!!
former immigrants... try again later.
tnt's... dont try again.
interested applicants... make sure your papers are complete.

SELL yourself!! CONVINCE me that your an ASSET to my heart. aw!!

-=0o0=-

"One cannot question the existence of feelings.

they are there, raw and undeniable.

But one can choose not to nurture what is felt.

yet, no matter what they say,

what has been felt will always be more honest than what was chosen.

hence, true realities are not built by the mind but by the heart.

so if you're caught between what your mind thinks is right and what your heart feels is right, it is always safer to follow your heart... "

-inday

trial and error...lessons learned.

2007-09-06T17:40:00.000+08:00

as promised, here's the story of the story that should not have been told. wehehehe

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i've been single for a bout a year and a half now. never had a bf. (when i say bf it means, legal bf. haha) but i did have this relationship with a guy...

i met im him in a funeral. (astig! haha) we have this common friend. so basically, we ended up being friends, too... we became close. like most friends do, we had our outing (kelangan isingit tong outing na toh, need sa story. haha) .people noticed our closeness and started teasing us. they thought that we are a couple.

2 weeks after the outing...
friend1: kelan naging kau?
me: huh? di nmn kami e.
friend1: ows?? kelan nga?
me: di nga, tanungin mo pa sya.
friend1: kelan naging kayo?
guy: nun 15 (it was d date of the outing)
friend1: 15 pala naging kayo e. hahaha
me: huh? 15? ah, ok.(count d "ah, ok") cge 15. hahaha

i did not take it seriously... (kitam my haha). for me, it was a typical joke time day of the tropa. naki-ride na lang ako...

a week after...
friend2:kau na pla e noh...
me: (iling...)
guy: oo
friend2: nu date nyo?
guy: 15.
me: 15? as in april 15? 3 weeks na tau?? hahaha.
guy: oo.
me: ganun? ah, ok. (2) hahaha

again... i didn't not take it seriously... i just laughed.

friend3(common friend): kau na pla e noh...
me: oo, daw. nagulat na lang ako e.
friend3: hamo na sya. gusto ka nmn talga nun...
me: eh, joke time lang nmn un diba?!

friend3: sineryoso ata, tuwang tuwa e.

me: ah, anu yon. instant bf?? hindi ako ganun e.
friend3: pagbigyan mo na muna... try mo kung may mangyayari. kapag wala edi ibreak mo.
me: ganun? e hindi talaga ako ganun...

friend3: laki ng pinagbago nun... pagbigyan mo na.

me: (isip) ah, ok.(3) wehehehe...

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it was may 14, i had a party at home. we talked...
me:uhm, talaga bang 1 month na tau bukas? (super wondering)
guy: oo. (smile)
me: ahhh, ok. (4)

a that moment... i realized that i was in a relationship that i never planned of having. i was in a very unfamiliar situation. having a relationship without courtship, without anything... without feelings... (although crush ko sya, still, it wasn't enough.) it's not me. NOT ME!!!
.

GO!

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ok!! an idea popped out of my head. "why not try something i 've never done my whole life" since im single, cge na nga!! i thought of going on with the relationship... i thought of trying a relationship w/o feelings... (it may sound bad, but hey, at least im not having an affair w/ other guys or playing with their feelings) try ko lang ba kung may mangyayari... if it will work. i want to feel what other people feels when they get into a "sudden" relationship. i want to know kung may magbbloom ba... i want to know kung magtatagal ba... i want to know kung mas magwowork ba... i just want to know.

i tried my very best to be a good gf... i texted him day and night. i've tried being sweet, to be caring. i tried loving him... pero sad to say... walang nagbloom, walang nangyari. walang love na naramdaman.

beep, beep!!

then i realized... hindi talaga ako toh. i can't do this anymore!! i can't do what other people can... i can't commit into relationship na walang feelings. i have to stop this.

STOP!!!

so, aun nga, i broke up with him... i told him that i can't go on anymore...

as of now we're friends... =)

lessons learned...

1. if you don't have feelings for a person, don't offer anything but friendship. just friendship.

2. don't be such a jerk trying to experience things with VERY OBVIOUS OUTCOMES.

3. if there's no love, don't insist on going on with it...

4. if its not you... don't do it. (gets nyo?!)

5. HUWAG I COMPROMISE ANG SARILI DAHIL SA HIYA!!!

6. trying to fall inlove in a wrong way is BAD FOR YOUR HEALTH!! VERY BAD!!!

notice to the public:

all situations that you think is the same as yours, pardon me, nakikiexperience lang. wehehehe. please, don't ever think that im in for a game...

i'm still the same person who's been waiting for my landon carter to come...

i firmly believe that you cannot really force yourself to love someone...

"Don't search for love, let love search for you...

that's why it is called falling inlove, 'cause you don't actually force yourself to love.

YOU JUST FALL."

bad mood, bad day...

2007-09-03T14:23:00.000+08:00

wow!! BER month na... Christmas is in the air... start na ng countdown!! saya!!
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yeah, ryt?! i told myself. ang pangit ng start ng ber month ko... i woke up yesterday morning feeling uneasy. bad day!!!

as usual... im late. (naguguilty na ko.. pero ganun pa din. sorry po ulit Lord).

i had a meeting with my youth friends... mga pasaway sila... sabayan pa ng bad/guilty day ko. aun, naging taray moment ko tuloy ung meeting... (sorry sa mga natarayan ko.) ang meeting ay meeting... dapat magseryoso!!

i cooked food for lunch... then i fell asleep...

my sister woke me up...
khean: ate, si tito tumawag, pumunta daw tau sa birthday ni lolo. (my parents' wedding godfather). galit na galit, pumunta daw tau. ateeee!!!
me: GRRRRR. kitang natutulog ako e... hamosya magalit. lakad pumunta ka!!! (sorry po, antok na antok tlga ako... at super bad mood xe tlga ko)
khean: e ayoko din pumunta!
me: e di wag ka pumunta!

*nagtext c mommy...3x
mom: parang awa nyo na pumunta kau dito...
mom: hinahanap nila kau...
mom: please, pumunta kau dito....
(hays!! napabangon ako... si mommy kasi di ko matiis!! arghhhh)

so, aun... off we go to lolo's birthday...
(inside the house)
jonelle: sino ung dumating?
jai: sina ate...
(terrace)
me: anu na ginagawa sa loob?
lynlyn: ewan... kakadating ko lang din.. patapos na ata gawain...
me: ah, ok.
lynlyn: alam mo ba si ano.... blah bah blah..
me: oh, di nga?? blah blah...
(ate lyn 2x and i had an endless kwentuhan... kamusta nmn un?!)
daddy: greetings na... tawagin mo sina lykes...
jai: (silip sa labas) ate, i-greet nyo daw si lolo.
elmer: mam lykes, pasok daw kau....
flor: mam, greet daw kau.
me: sige wag na ko...
lynlyn: d2 lang kami sa labas...
me: ikaw na lang khean
khean: ayoko nga!!
me: bilis na bati na!! dali na!!
khean: (silip sa loob) Lo, happy birthday!

...happy birthday to you.... (people singing)

LOLO HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

biboy: ate, halika dito...
me: bakit?
biboy: galit si tatay... hehehe
lykes: oo nga e, hamosya, di ako natatakot. (tapang ko noh?!) hahaha
biboy: ayan na si tatay.. wag ka maingay...
lykes: wag ka magalala...
biboy: sige, te, alis na ko!! wahahaha (sabay sibat ng mabilis andyan na si tito!!)

eating time...
afritada, rice, spaghetti, & violet na puto... (SARAP)

jonelle: badtrip ka tlga ngaun noh?!
noemi: tignan mo mukha... hahaha
me: OO!! penge tubig! (hahahaha)
zundae: ate, picture!!!
me: (SMILE!!) wahaha

wala lang... wehehe. sencia na... taray effect talaga ko kahapon... dami nadamay... wehehe. oh, well, kilala nyo naman ako... nagtataray pero nakatawa pa rin.. =) =) =)
sorry po lo, wala po akong intensyon na kahit ano, bad mood lang tlga... HAPPY BIRTHDAY PO!!!

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after the party, i went home and watched spiderman 2... and i got 2 quotable quotes from that movie...

"love should never be a secret. if you keep something as complicated as love stored inside, it makes you sick."

- dr. otto octavious

"sometimes to do whats right, we have to be steady and give up the things we want the most, even our dreams. "

-aunt may parker

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i watched the "hero" last nyt... ok pla 2ng movie na 2... astig ung story... basta ASTIG!!

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i'm getting tired of waiting....

movie trip....!!

2007-08-30T10:42:00.000+08:00

my post is late again!! grrr....

---for aug. 27 - 28, 2007
sarap ng life two days walang pasok... monday, national heroes day. tuesday, st. augustine day!! walang andah kaya tambay lang sa house.

i buried myself watching movies...
1. The Hills Have Eyes 1
2. The Hills Have Eyes 2
3. Spiderman 1
4. A Walk To Remember

most likely movie review ang gagawin ko... so, kamusta nmn un diba?!

1. The Hills Have Eyes 1
--this film is eikiee... its all about people having genetic problems due to nuclear weapons. they have abnormalities and they became cannibals.... uhm. this movie is a suspense-thriller. grabe, ang sarap magulat (magugulatin kasi ako...), and sarap umirit (maingay kasi ako), at ang sarap madiri(kumakain kasi ako)... imagine a monster-like person kissing ur body! ok!! kadiri.. hahaha. so far, this movie's nice. astig si doug d2, parang man of steel, bugbog sarado na... buhay pa din at nananapak!! parang di human... hahaha.

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2. The Hills Have Eyes 2
---this one's less eikiee, less thrilling. i prefer the first movie... (mom agreed). the eikieest part would be the part wherein the girl was raped by the so called "creatures in the mine". disgusting ung part na kung saan the girl bit off the creatures tongue... nweiz, the films ok, just an OK rating.
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3. Spiderman 1
---i love this movie. wala lang... iba tlga ang hatak ng mga part 1 movies. "the how it all started" thingy... the start of things hanggang sa magkaroon ng mga part 2 etc. kakagulat tlga d2 si Toby, i always thought that he looks skinny and funny. pero in this movie, wow!! hahaha. ok, so far, this is a lovable movie, ganda. thumbs up sa effects!! the spider moves?? nice one!!

" With great powers comes great responsibility..."

-uncle ben parker

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4. A Walk To Remember...

--finally, here's my review for a walk to remember! =) i've been liking this movie alot. mandy moore was good in her acting and shane west, too. a preachers daugther and a cool guy, falling inlove with each other... (i missed falling inlove, nyay!!!) i liked the part wherein shane west cried and hugged his father. nakakadala ung iyak nya, nagkasipon tuloy ako!! "manly and dating". shet! haha. bilib tlga ko sa lalaking umiiyak... realistic ung pagiyak nya... nweiz, enough of his crying scene... so far, for me, wala pa ring makakatalo sa love story na toh. hahaha. two thumbs up!! hays, napapawish nnmn ako na sana, someday i will find my landon carter... unconditional love... a guy who will do anything just to make me happy and make me feel loved. (dadating ka pa kaya?)

"Love is like the wind. You can't see it but you can feel it."

- Landon Carter

CYF barkada...

2007-08-26T23:26:00.000+08:00

i woke up early today... but still i arrived late in the church (sorry po Lord).

we had our joint fellowship with pascam Church. i'm very happy kasi daming umattend...

pose muna bago umalis...

off we go... ooops... pose ulit pla muna!!

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i saw someone today. i looked into his eyes and there i saw love... love that should have been seen before not after the goodbyes, love that should have been given before ending up the story. its too late! but then again, it doesn't matter anymore...

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me, faith, ralph, rica & jireh went to Red Ribbon's Bacao and ate dinner... and there i saw a couple, so sweet. i always imagined myself with that kind of relationship. inseparable.

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COMMERCIAL...

(at mirc undernet #lounge)
shopi--> oo nga, maganda yang si chix. kumbaga sa karneng baboy, may tatak ng pagkasuri yan ng bfad
* `chix bugbog shopi!!!!!!!!!
woody`--> uyy
woody`--> babuy ba si kras eJ?
woody`--> nde naman babuy yan ah

***hindi ako baboy!! sexy akO!!! (hahahaha)

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an endless wait... all because of you....

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"If you are so much focused with whats left behind, you might not be able to see what lies ahead..."

-Chef Gusteau (Ratatouille)

"sum" happenings...

2007-08-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

hays, putek... i'm not in the mood rigth now. im tired. pero sige post pa din ako... (bear with me if this post turns out to be boring... )

**i'm listening to garbage's... "i think i'm paranoid"
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happenings?? ano nga ba....

> si xiao sinapak si **rb*. twice!!. astig!!
(makakating dila... dapat ng magtanda. huwag pagusapan ang mga di dapat pagusapan. STOP!! being a tsismosa)
> may araw din kayo, lahat kayo mga tsismosa kau!!!
> typhoon egay!! (thanks for the pre-sembreak experience!!)
> drown myself watching movies... 3 movies na paulit ulit...
> senyorita absenot! as usual... (sorry po mommy... liars go to hell. (ouch!))
> been doing some health teachings during our duty week... ( the puto was delicious!! yum!!)
> met ralph (tores?)...(ur nice) ... my english came alive again!! hahaha
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**i'm listening to gagong rappers'... "kabet"
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> went to the market w/ faith... i helped her finish her school project.
> i went to SM Dasma after duty, to eat and to print pix... (i have nothing to do at home.) and bought a rice cooker w/ mom...
> my printers broken... badtrip!!
> i was a pessimist this past few days... (optimism wer r u?)
> my spanish & french vocabulary really sucks!!
> midterm was moved. ayos!! (thank you Lord!!)
> i saw jp... (be thankful to God at binuhay ka pa) --he just recovered from a near death accident. your so lucky, God loves you!!
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**i'm listening to gwyneth paltrows'... "cruisin"
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> anne had a bad news... (i just want you to know that im here... kaming friendships mo. Be strong!!)
> sabi ko kay anne, " anne, gusto ko ng magkabf" (nyek!! joke time!!)
> i saw the book entitled "the secret" (oh, my, 599!! pero buti na lang sale!! 20% off... kaya 480 na lang... kaso i still have to w8 for my allowance.... na-aatat na kong bilhin!!)
> kitel, walang andang papel puro coins lang!! hahahaha
> tin tin gave me 20 php worth of sun load, don't know why pero Thanx!!
> yahoo!! feel na feel ko na tlga ang pagiging choir conductress!! wahaha
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**i'm listening to incubus'... "i miss you"
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> i'm missin' someone... bwisit!!! haha

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arghhhh... im still here... waiting... waiting.... waiting....

**i'm listening to itchyworms'... "beer"

**i'm listening to janno gibbs'... "fallin"

sad saturday...

2007-08-12T00:24:00.000+08:00

---for Aug. 11, 2007

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hays... im supposed to write a lot of things about this day... aug. 20 na ngaun kaya i have already forgotten the exact details of the events... the only thing that's clear is that this day was

a very sad day... =(

i attended my pharmacology class w/ dr. bucu.

i went straight to the church after class, choir practice...

took pictures with friends... i had fun.. but still i was very sad.

hiding behind the laughters.... =(

me, eldrin & jeric

takot ka ba sa dilim?!
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pretending we were actors....

more pics at http://chixzy.multiply.com/

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im craving for a japanese sweet corn....
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---for Aug. 12, 2007

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as far as i can remember, i had fun the whole day of Sunday. so, busy!!! i went to Church... kuya egay visited me... i cooked sweet and sour fish and fried 5 pcs. of pork, chopped... i had my pictorial, again!! haha. we had our CyF... then we went to the plaza... to unwind!!!!

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sample: i'm wearing pink!!
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this is what the plaza looks like...

look at our behind... bwahaha

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here i am, still waiting... waiting... hope's starting to fade...

understanding a female taurus...

2007-08-10T02:04:00.000+08:00

* MOON*

You love deeply... you mayflirt along and people think youre a playboy/playgirl but the truth is: your heart belongs to only one.

**i got this from arkhe's bulletin post in friendster...sakto lang na ang napili ko ay moon. the funny thing is medyo nakakrelate ako kasi, akala nila flirt ako pero hindi nman talga.. sakto lang tlga sa description ng moon... hahaha.

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Taurus natives are deeply romantic and very loyal souls who value the harmony that a happy home life creates. They will go to any extremes to keep a loved one happy and no sacrifice will be too great in accomplishment of that goal. It is the nature of a Taurus individual to need the good life and that need is reflected in the desire to share such a life with someone special. In a sexual sense, Taurus is straightforward and down-to-earth. Taurus native prefers long-lasting relationships and will seek to build strong alliances. It takes a great deal to truly anger the Taurus subject who is in love, but disloyalty will usually prove to be the ultimate factor.

Any potential partner must be honest and upright at all times. The Taurus woman can see through a phony with her eyes closed. She must be told exactly what a partner is feeling about her and exactly what that partner wants...or does not want...in a relationship.

Once committed, however, she will be faithful and true since, from an early age, she is a firm believer in the "one and only" type of love. Even if this female becomes disillusioned later in life and her ideal appears to have been crushed, she will hold fast to her vision of a one mate commitment. In turn, she will demand absolute fidelity. Despite her repeated attempts to dominate, this is a woman who truly wants her partner to be her boss. however much this female likes to grumble, she secretly adores to be ruled since it makes her feel protected.

once a Taurus native does close his or her heart, there is very little chance that it will open up again. Most of the troubles here will emerge over jealousy, possessiveness and the inherent inability of Taurus to change in a basic fashion. Those ruled by this Sign can be immovable forces when they so desire and if they have decided they are perfectly happy with something exactly as it is, nobody can pressure them to change.

For a relationship to last, it will be necessary for any mate to flatter this woman in order to keep her. She also needs to be cajoled, playfully teased and constantly told that she is loved. She may not always take these things seriously, but she will relish them all the same. This is a female who abhors being taken for granted and thus, will want to hear expressions of gratitude...but above all else, this woman craves affection.

Romantic Style:

Affectionate - Satisfying - Can Be Generous

Taurus natives value peace, harmony and stability. They look toward the long-term rather than short-lived excitement, preferring a mate who makes them feel emotionally secure. In return, they provide plenty of affection and generosity, but are prone to be jealous and possessive of any partner. These are souls who require creature comforts in order to operate at their maximum...romantically and otherwise. Subjects of Taurus are not particularly interested in dazzling ideas. They believe in playing it steady and safe. Those governed by this Sign have an unfortunate trait of frequently becoming quickly and deeply involved with the first individual they meet who happens to capture their romantic interest.

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happy... but still waiting... patience... patience...

i know y it rains...

2007-08-08T23:46:00.000+08:00

it rains kasi the sky is sad... nakikiramay sa sadness ko at sa sadness ng ibang tao.

a chance for every person to cry without hesitations... without anybody noticing that there are tears in their eyes...

haha... ang lungkot ata ng post ko... wala lang... nakakahawa kasi ang rainfall. rainy season is such a sad season... tamang tama para sa mga malulungkot. grrr... i'm officially mastering the art of being a bum and also i have decided that i should master the art of being timid.

i had enough with being open with my feelings.. yeah, i think i should also master the art of zipping my mouth and just keeping things to myself. hahaha. (at ano itong ginagwa ko ngaun?? haha. unzipping my mouth!!)

though patience is my virtue and "be(ing) optimistic" is my new motto, still i'm having a hard time dealing with my attitude of being ATAT. hays... bwisit na ugali toh... nakakainis. i think i should drop the subject of being segurista. i have this attitude kasi na dapat mas maaga pa lang alam ko na yung outcome... very contradicting with my virtue. i guess being patient is only applicable para dun sa mga bagay na malayo sa word na "love".

i'm not in hurry... really, i'm not. its just that, "kung wala naman kasing kahihinatnan e wag na lang natin palawakain ung mga bagay-bagay." wala lang naicip ko lang... epekto siguro talga toh ng pagmamaster sa pagiging bum. hindi ako umaasa... as in hindi talaga... at lalong hindi ako nagcoconclude. ayoko lang maiwan sa ere...ayokong maiwan na nakabitin. ayokong magkamali. ayokong ayoko na!! aun!! hahaha.

aun, lumabas din ang totoo... ayaw ng magkamali, kasi nadala na?? OO, dalang dala na... pero eto pa rin si loka... may energy pa rin na magtry, na this time it might work. na this time baka eto na nga talaga... asar!!!! ang gulo gulo kong tao!!!

masaya naman ako with my life... =) bwisit lang talga na minsan certain situations needs to happen to shaken up my happy life and turn it into a semi-drama, na minsan when it becomes out of hand, it turns into a heavy drama.

aun pa ang isa... bwisit kasi kapag nadala ka na sa mga bagay bagay dun na nagsisimulang maging out of hand. losing control... na kapag hindi ka prepared... OUCH ang kapalit. kaya nga ako natutong maging "atat" at pessimist para bago ko pa malaman ang ending, nakondisyon ko na sarili ko at masasabi kong "i'm already prepared for that." (saan na napunta ang pagiging optimistic?? haha)

cge na nga, i admit, hirap akong maging optimistic!! pinipilit kong maging positive thinker, sobra!! kasi kailangan... as in kailangan!!! kasi ayoko na ng madramang ending!!! waaah. ang gulo gulo ko na talga... grrr

hays... life is but a cycle... parang gulong lang na paikot-ikot... masaya, malungkot, comedy, drama. paulit-ulit. di pwedeng laging masaya... dapat meron ding sadness. arggh!!

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as of now... ako ay nasa semi-drama, kakatapos lang ng semi heavy drama... sana, sana, as in sana... MASAYA naman ang kasunod. at sana sa susunod na ulan hindi na tumulo ang luha ko...
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BOW!!

(ang drama!! haha... ung iba dyan dinagdag lang... para makulay!! para malandi!! hahaha)

welcome back...

2007-08-07T23:29:00.000+08:00

to kitz...
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putek.. namiss kita... WELCOME BACK! the quote that you have just resent was meant for someone else... hahaha.
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nweiz, i do hope that ur alright now. tagal mo nawala, nagworry ako. nweiz, naiintindihan naman kita... ginawa ko na yan dati remember?! mas malala nga lang ung akin... months. haha.
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alam mo naman ang friendship natin... mawalan man ng communication for months alam mong lagi kang may babalikan.... =) LOVE YOU brukz!!
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wapak quote... e2 daw ung sinend ko kay kitel dati... binabalik nya lang DAW sa kin... haha
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" Masakit hindi dahil hindi mo ako mahal...

kung di dahil hindi mo ko sinubukang mahalin...

Masakit hindi dahil mahal mo sya,

ngunit dahil alam ko na kahit dalawa na lang tayo sa mundo...

e kaibigan pa rin ako sayo..."

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too bad its not applicable.
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still waiting... waiting... a never ending wait!
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(headache... i can't continue anymore... )

san lazaro & more!!

2007-08-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

i was in a hurry... kala ko maiiwan ako ng bus... haha. pero ang aga ko pala. =)

im a bit worried kasi i will be joining the other section...

some of them are familiar faces... aun, i remember kuya apple & ate nora. i had a make-up duty with them before at st. martin's. buti na lang kahit papano may kakilala ako...

on the way 2 san lazaro, loner ako...

it was raining hard... it fits my mood very well. loner in the sense that "panis na laway ko" wala makausap. haha. buti may bitbit akong ipod, soundtrip... linkin park at buti na lang at may mabait na kitikitext!! salamat!!

inside the hospital...

we went to the ampitheater (as they call it), we had our orientation. hospital's history, staffs... etc. we also had our tour... we have to wear our apron, s-gown & we also have to use a double mask for our protection. FYI... San Lazaro Hospital is the center for communicable disease in the Philippines... meaning lahat ng nakakahawang sakit d2 nacoconfine... like TB, AIDS, Chicken pox... etc. that's why we need to have protection kapag d2 magduduty!! =) mahirap na at baka mahawa pa kami...

bukod kay kuya apple... thank you dun sa 1 guy, na nakisukob sa kin... thank u kasi kinausap mo ko at nagkwento ka pa, dun sa 1 guy pa... cencia na maliit ako e. haha. dun sa 1 guy... thank you at sinamahan mo ako, pacencia na din sa abala. =) at dun sa 1 girl... thank you at kinausap at inantay mo ko. =) hopefully tomorrow all of you guys will talk to me. =) Hurray Honest 2!!

on the way home...

soundtrip ulit. tulad lang kanina, napanis laway ko, but its ok, i'm a bit tired na rin kasi. thank you ulit sa aking katext. =)

it's raining really hard again & as always, manila's flooded again. whew, traffic pa!!

tired na... on the way home.

--- AUG. 5, 2007

once again, i had my pictorial... medyo showy ung top ko. hahaha. mainit kasi. i'm having a hard time with my "angle". huhuhu.

( http://chixzy.multiply.com/ )

sunday pictorial... haha
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--- CYF... 2pm.

i attended the cyf... konti lang kami but it was fun. the short talk was cool, pede talagang irelate sa life. it was all about the family... coping up with things. "family friction" solutions... very informative ung lesson. =)

we had an activity, jonelle (game master... naks!!) gave us some text card (pokeman) and instructed us to make a house out of it. it was a bit hard ang liit kasi nun cards tsaka LUMA NA!! tse! hahaha. nweiz, our group won... look at our work!! hahaha. ganda!! =)

mansion na gawa sa text... hehe

after the CYF... me & my friend, jhun, went to our house. astig!! after 9 years.... ahihihi. aun, nakakahiya kasi pinagdala pa nya ko ng blue berry & buko tart... (tart nga ba un?) SARAP grabe!! lalo na ung blue berry... THANK YOU!! =)

blue berry & buko tart... (tama ba?)

YUMMY!!!

aun, walang humpay na kwentuhan... dami kailangan i-catch up sa buhay buhay... hehe. =) i had fun!! (sana ikaw din, sana di ka nabored. )

nagkayagan bumili ng ice cream na nauwi sa pagpunta sa plaza.... sakto may mga tiange na (for the fiesta). tingin 2x for pirated dvd's. haha. bad!! super dami ng tao sa plaza!!

Jhun & me... =)

we took our picture habang nagpapahinga sa may plaza... ahehe. =) tapos aun uwian na!!

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waiting... waiting... waiting... life nga naman!!!! ang saklap minsan...

weird driew

2007-08-02T00:48:00.000+08:00

ok fine.. i felt something really weird...
ok fine. im listening to ariel rivera's "minsan lang kita iibigin".
ok fine. it felt weird talaga.
ok fine. i was browsing profiles, pictures... then suddenly...
ok fine. something struck me... hard.
ok fine. the weird feeling is getting stronger.
ok fine!!!

now i know... im becoming hesitant!!!
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hahaha. naweweirdohan na ko!!!
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putek... ERASE ERASE NA DAPAT!!!
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ang panget ng feeling. just when i let it come freely saka nmn biglang papasok ung thought na... "ooopzzz, wag, he's too good for me"

GRRRRRRR. bwisit na kanta yan!! hahaha
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kapraningan tlga... its invading my nerves again!!

nweiz,

" Happy Birthday Jellybeans aka SOSOY!! "

-ur main goal is to be back here soon para maging happy na ang aking heaven na si dang... =)

-LOVE YOU BOTH!!

ng dahil sa kalungkutan at kaweirdohan... i was back to my old hobby... reading!! i saw a book on the shelf... read it under the light of a flashlight... 234pages...

"Around The World in 80 Days" by Jules Verne...

after 30 mins... I finished reading it. swabe!

--- i missed physics class... sorry engr. presa!! =)

psst rion... happy beeeday!!

2007-07-30T10:46:00.000+08:00

naks... ang lakas sa kin e.... haha. special blog para lang batiin ka! hahaha.

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i tried eating alone... i've been wondering kasi how it feels eating alone. that's why aun, kumain ako magisa ng chicken tocino sa jollibee... ganun pala ang feeling kapag kumakain magisa sa isang fast food or anywhere else... kalungkot!! huhu. patingin tingin sa paligid... observing people, thinking about things.... hays dami pede maicip kapag magisa... kung anu anong bagay ang pumasok sa isip ko...

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i firmly believe that, it was alryt being alone kahit pamisan minsan... maging independent man lang kahit sa maliit na bagay... =)

what a duty!!!

2007-07-26T18:09:00.000+08:00

Sincere 3... watching Mr. Bean. haha
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i thought this day would be a lonesome day but i was very wrong... super bait ng sincere 3... mas ok pa sumama d2 sa group na toh kung icocompare ko sa group ko na loyal 3... na puro "plastik!!" ang mga tao. Oooopz!! hahaha.
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nweiz, THANK YOU ulit sincere 3 ang babait nyo... ibang klase ang duty natin, we're like scavengers... hahaha. pero ok lang, i had fun nmn e... =)
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---kuya dennis, alvin, sergio, jobelle, mizzy, garneth.... forgot ko ung iba... basta guys.. THANK YOU!!
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(incomplete details....)

POC tour!! (ortho)

2007-07-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

as a start... me and my classmates are out for a special tour at the Philippine Orthopedic Hospital. for those who doesn't know... (kahit obvious nmn) its a hospital somewhere in banawe... manila?? wherein most bone surgery are being done. Ortho nga e diba?! hehe.

Philippine Orthopedic Center

but before we go straight to the hospital, syempre dahil nauna ang aming van we went to mcdonalds!! medyo gutom na kaming lahat kaya aun... i bought green apple mcfloat... wow!! masarap pla!! haha. first time e... sensya na!! c anne nag twister fries ung combo! ang mahal!! 72php. grrr. haha. gastador ka ata ngaun iha!! haha. epekto ba yan dahil katabi si ano?? bwahaha.

green apple mc float & regular burger... 1st time!!
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after eating.. we went immediately to the hospital to look for our tour guide... este CI pla... took a pose habang nagaantay... muntik pang di matuloy ang tour sa hospital kasi nabadtrip ung CI namin kasi late na daw kami kahit hindi nmn tlga... almost 1 hr din nmin sinuyo, i mean sila pla, at aun, FINALLY!!! "SORRY" lang pla ang kailangan nyang marinig... although saying sorry was not necessary kasi we didn't do anything wrong nmn tlga... since estudyante.. at no choice.. Ok nagsorry... hmmp!! haha. pero ok na rin kasi we had our tour nmn!! nice! =)

anne, muy & me. =)

TOUR...

we walked around the hospital... parang supervisor lang. haha. saw lots of people having bone fracture... etc. ang cool pa nga e kasi, we saw how a prostetic foot is being made.

i didn't have a chance to take some pictures because of the "privacy of the patient" rule. so, kwento ko na lang ang mga nakita ko...

we went to the library first, grabeng mga instruments ung ginagamit. medyo ang weird ng mga itsura... ung isa mukhang antena ng tv. na very ouchy kung makikita mong nakalagay sa pasyente... actually, i saw a bunch of people having that kind of instrument a.k.a gadget daw... honestly, it looks icky kasi tagusan sa balat. ung isa, called ra-ef (di ko lam kung tama spelling) mukha syang p-V na antena na puro screw... the other one was a cylinder-like metal na puro pins and screws ( it is being used to pull the bone apart para sa callus formation... wow, ako ba ito?! nakikinig?! haha). ung isa nmn asteeg titanium made na gadget, nakalimutan ko ung name pero Erap has one daw... sa knee nya. tapos etc na. haha.

as we go on with the tour, i saw different kinds of people having different kinds of bone damage. pero mostly nakita ko ay mga oldies na... i guess mas prone lang tlga ang mga matatanda. tapos according to my CI most bone injury daw are due to motorcycle accident... kaya sa mga mahilig magmotor! ingat!! dahil kung kayo ang nasa position ko kanina... looking at those gadgets?? u will never think of having a bone injury!! promise!!

then, there was this patient who has a touchy story.... he had this spinal cord injury since 1996 & until now he's still in the POC. he has a respirator... etc. its touchy because for 11 years of being bedridden andun lang ung asawa nya sa tabi nya. binabantayan sya ng walang sawa. he didn't have any bedsores kasi nga magaling magalaga ung asawa nya... napawow tlga ako kasi... it only proves that meron tlgang mga tao na "for better or for worse" they will stay together...WOW, suddenly i feel like falling inlove again!!! haha...

aun... uwian... walang humpay na kwentuhan, too much laughter, too many stories... loads of kantyawan. whew. as if wala kaung duty ng 11pm-7am ah.. way the go!!

i had fun!! sarap maging sawsaw sa LOYAL 1!! bukas... sa SINCERE 3 naman!! haha.

im SICK!!

2007-07-24T10:23:00.000+08:00

---July 21, 2007
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today's the burial of my mom's friend, tita benny... me & my sister, jireh, went to maitim 2 (tagaytay na b 2??) with my mom. maaga pa lang nasa pala-pala na kami so, we decided na magstay muna sa robinson's mall, at nagshopping muna... haha.
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after an hour, we went na to maitim... dumiretso kami sa Church. syempre, nagkaroon muna ng gawain, farewell speeches... i saw ate febby and kuya arvin... waaahh. they're crying hard. CONDOLENCE po... =( congratz na rin kasi we know nmn that death is our way in seeing God and finally meeting him. after the gawain we went straight to the cemetery. my sister rode a van with tita lolie, my mom & i walked our way to the cemetery... mom's with her friends and me, im with jhun... yiheee. haha.
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(too bad wala taung picture jhun!! na kaya jai kasi ung cp... grrr. nweiz, thanks ng super dami, di mo ko iniwan!! =D)
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sina mommy na lang kinunan ko... on our way home na yan...
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Mom & Jireh
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before we go home talaga... we went muna to sm dasma.. ahihi. kailangan kasi magpprint ng pictures... eto ung isa sa mga pinaprint ko... Im showing off my parents!!!! =)

Mom & Dad
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choir practice....
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its the last day of kuya rico... our choir conductor. he's going to qatar na kasi... huhuhu. waaah... he appointed me to be his successor. so, aun ako na ang bagong choir conductress. waaah. sana makaya ko ung iniwan sa kin ni kuya... nabibigatan ako sa iniwan nya sa king responsibility... bukod sa mahirap magturo ng choir, e established na kasi talaga ung choir na super nakakahiya sa kanya kung papabayaan ko. binilinan pa ko na kailangan paguwi nya buo pa din kami... waaah. laki ng hirap nya sa min kaya waaaah. dapat lang tlga na alagaan ko un. tapos laki pa ng respeto ko sa kanya... basta taas ng tingin ko sa kanya... super pasensyo at super bait!! tapos sya pa ung tao na talagang pinaramdam nya sa kin na even though i am still young e ang dami kong pedeng gawin at mapatunayan sa iba at lalo na sa sarili ko. he made me go on with singing... waaah. he made me sing a solo. super thankful talga ko kasi sya ang naging coach ko. basta no words can express how thankful i am that i have met someone like kuya rico...
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ingat ka po dyan sa qatar kuya... mamimiss namin kau!! God bless you always!! i promise you... il take care of the choir!! =)

Bro. / Kuya Rico

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--- July 22, 2007

i woke up early... its time to go to Church... excited dapat syempre!! =) kasi sisimba....kaso aun.. late pa din... hays.. sorry po ulit Lord. =(
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all black ang get-up ko.... hahaha. kaya aun... picture picture ulit ako...
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me and my sisters watched "a date movie"..... kulit ng movie tong. palipas oras habang antay ko mag 11:30 para makapagluto na ko ng ulam for lunch!! yipeee!!

laki eyes!! awoooo. haha

nagtelebabad ata ko nung gabi... di ko na maalala... hahaha. ay oo, telebabad nga. hahaha.
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---July 23, 2007
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saklap ng araw na ito... i woke up very very sick. i had diarrhea... fever... nausea... at super headache. di ako makabangon sa higaan kasi konting tayo ko lang natutumba ako.... huhuhu...
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may duty dapat ako sa san lazaro hospital kaso.. waaah. di ko talga kaya pumasok!!
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waaaaaaaa. ayoko ng gantong feeling!! super sama.... huhuhuhu....
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AYOKO NA MAGKASAKIT!!!
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obviously im too sick to post... kaya nga 24 na ko nakapagblog.... =(

Break muna tau... pwede ba?!

2007-07-21T00:49:00.000+08:00

-for July 20, 2007

this is my self-motivation picture reminding me that i should get up and there's more to life than sleeping!! naks!! thanks to my motivator... idol 18thvision!! yiheee. hahaha.

sadyang sa kisame ko yan nilagay so that everytime i open my eyes... maganda kagad ang araw ko. i read it everytime i wake up. mukha akong jerk.. pero, yeah, it works for me!! =) waking up with a big smile on my face!!! (kahit na sapilitan akong ginising ni mommy!! haha). knowing na i have a Big God and that He has something new to offer everyday!!

I SHOULD GET UP AND BE HAPPY!! ENJOY LIFE!!

nakapost yan sa kisame ko....

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so, tapos na ang prelim!! yahooo!! hangout time with anne & miezel sa 7/11. pinagbigyan ang aming mga cravings!! pangtanggal ng stress. bought shawarma sa may tapat ng i-zone... tawid kami papuntang 7/11. bumili si anne ng H2O (nilibre ako), Hotdog w/ beef (limot ko tawag) & slurpy. c miezel nmn bumili ng pizza at orange juice... naupo kami sa mini table & chairs. aun, kain lang kami ng kain. kawawang zel... di daw sya satisfied. nweiz, bumili ulit kami ni anne ng Big stix... hahaha. takaw!!

hays....

sarap nun ganung feeling... nakatambay ka lang... nakatingin sa kung saan saan, nagoobserve. parang getting away from everything... nakaupo lang... nagrerelax, nagpapasarap!! nakakamimiss ung ganung eksena... mga simpleng moments in life... ika nga nila.... =)

isang cute na extra at 2 royal friends... hehehe

un ng break na minsan kailangan ng isang tao. sabi nga ni ped... takbo kasi tau takbo na minsan di na natin napapansin ung mga naiiwan natin. connection?? sa sobrang pagtakbo natin di natin naeenjoy ang buhay... mga simpleng bagay tulad ng pagupo sa cafe habang nakikipagkwentuhan sa mga friends. mga simple things in life na nakalimutan na natin na minsan ay naging stepping stone natin sa pagbuo ng ating mga pangarap... nagets nyo ba ko?!! hahaha. basta un na un... mga simpleng bagay, na nakakapagpangiti ng ating mga puso!! AW!!!

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a quotable txt msg in which i think is inspiring...

You let go, let the tears flow. feel it completely but eventually be able to say,

"All right that was my moment with loneliness.

i'm not afraid of feeling lonely...

but now i'm going to put that loneliness aside

& know that there are other emotions in the world and

i'm going to experience them as well."

---words of Morrie Schwartz from the book Tuesdays w/ Morrie by Mitch Albom...

dear HIBOLZ...

2007-07-19T23:30:00.000+08:00

(inspired by kitel...)

dear hibolz,

wow... ang bilis ng panahon. its been 5 years now since we became family!! namimiss ko na kau!! mga bondings natin...

-ung sama sama nating pagpunta sa magallanes

-ung pagkain at pagtambay sa kantunan

-ung pagkain ng tukneneng kapag uwian

-ung pagtambay sa pc shop sa taas ng greenwich

-ung pagbubukas natin ng SM manila dahil wala nnmn prof

-ung pagtambay sa locker area

-ung panghuhula ng mga # ng lock ng may lock.. haha

-ung hiraman ng t-square, tech pen, triangle... etc

-ung paggawa ng plates at "paki gawa ako plate"

-ung pagpasok sa room ng may room para lang makipagkwentuhan

-ung paglalakad sa wall ng intra

-ung pagpasok sa school kahit wala nmn pasok... makikipagkwentuhan lang ulit!

-ung pagddrawing sa fort santiago sabay punta sa ipinagbabawal na tunnel at pagpitas ng sampaloc

-ung panonood natin ng basketball sa may malapit sa simbahan... (forget d name)

-ung namimiss ko ung taranta days natin kapag inaatake si kitel.. (bleh!!)

-ung mga kwentuhan na walang humpay...

-ung pagtambay sa may fire exit para tapusin ang plates...

-ung community service natin sa school sa may sta. cruz ata un...

-ung pagpunta nyo dito sa bahay....

-ung pagattend natin ng mga debut at pagsayaw sa kutilyon... haha

-ung PE days natin na ang suot natin ay short shorts at v-neck na shirt (required kasi)... (buti nakajogging pants na ngaun)

-ung paglusong sa baha at pagsakay sa pedicab dahil mataas ang tubig...

-ung group hug at kiss....

-ung tawanan natin

-ung iyakan...

-ung samahan natin na ngaun ay unti unti ng nawawala...

nakakalungkot isipin na isang pamilya tau dati... na ang lufet ng kapit natin sa isa't isa... anu na nangyari sa atin?? bakit ganun?? bakit parang kanya- kanya na?? bakit parang ang layo na natin sa isa't isa?? bakit parang di ko na kau kilala?? bakit kahit anung pilit nating magsama sama physically parang ang lalayo pa rin natin sa isa't isa???

nalulungkot ako kasi alam kong may isang tao na lubos nasasaktan sa mga nangyayari...

di ko matake na nasasaktan sya... tama sya, "ang hibolz ang pamilya natin sa labas ng ating mga house". pero asan na ung pamilyang un?? asan na ung mga minahal kong kapamilya?? andyan pa ba kau?? nakakaiyak kasi parang nawawala na ang pamilya natin...

sorry kung minsan nawala ako...

sana maibalik natin ung dati...

sana di pa huli ang lahat para sa "pamilyang hibolz"...

love,

bunso

kangkungan... by PED

2007-07-18T23:20:00.001+08:00

== gawa toh ng former classmate ko from mapua... PED... ur the man talga!! astig!! ==

"Sa Gitna ng Kangkungan"

It's always so easy to try to mess upyour life. But it takes the strength outof you to keep your head above water.Ang hirap. Nakakatamad. Mas madalingpanoorin ang mundo habang iniiwan kanito. Walang pakialaman kung pupulutinka sa kangkungan.

Pero may mga pagkakataong ok langmapagod. Ok lang mahirapan. Minsan ngalang,mare-realize mo na lang yun kapagnasa kangkungan ka na. So what? eh diilaga mo yung kangkong, lagyan mongoyster sauce o kaya toyo. O kaya ibentamo sa palengke. Yayaman ka. Marami yun.Kangkungan yun eh.

Sa sitwasyon ko ngayon nasa gitna ako ngdilemma kung manonood lang o magbebentang kangkong. If I've got my viewscorrectly dapat nga di na sya dilemma,katangahan na lang yun kung pipiliin kopang manood. None the less, here I am,taking my time trying to decide the bestnext move in my life. Siguro what'sholding me back is not the idea ofactually moving. It's where to move.Where to go. What to look forward to.What's up ahead.

Nilagay na nga ako sa kangkungan nilagaypa ko sa gitna. Naman.

Medyo ngayon lang uli ako nakapag-postkasi parang puro depression ordisappointment crap na lang angnaisusulat ko. Nakapag-post ako para saaso namin just to lighten yung load ngmga posts ko. But after that. La na.

Kapag nanonood ako ng T.V. Malikot akosa channels. Lalo na 'pag commercialbreak. And somehow, maybe by somechance, madalas kong nakikita yungcommercial ng program ni Bo Sanchez saABC 5. I don't know why, but every timehe says it matutulala ako, then snapback to stupid old me then keep onsurfing. It's an old clichè that tellsyou to slow down and listen.

"bagalan mo ang takbo ng buhay mo, paramarinig mo..ang boses ng Diyos"

yeah yeah..been there..done that. yeahright. "Done that". (titig sascreen..titig..titig..blink blink)

No, I haven't "done that". I've beenthere, I am there. But haven'tdefinitely done that. Akala ko langbinabagalan ko na ang takbo ng buhay ko.Yun pala, nag-iba lang ako ngpinagtatakbuhan, pero tumatakbo pa rin.Yes, I do stop. But I don't rest. I keepon thinking about the next run. Orthinking about the past run. Na hindi koman lang maisip na magpahinga,samantalahin ang pagkakataon, atmakinig. Ang resulta..di ko na alam kungsa patungo yung takbo ko. I'm runningblind. And here I am. Sa gitna ngkangkungan.

Mas mahirap tumakbo ngayon. Sana langwag lumubog. Sana lang wag mapagod.Along the way mag-lalaga ako ngkangkong, lalagyan ng oyster sauce attoyo. Pwede bang ihawinyun?hmm..magbibitbit na rin ako paraibenta sa palengke. Para magamit ko yungpinagdaanan ko kung makalabas na ngaako. Siguro. Para 'di naman masyadongmahapo, 'pag pagod na ko, babagalan kolang ang takbo ko. O kaya uupo at titigil, hihiga.

Babagalan ko lahat. 'Di ko iisipin yungtinakbo ko, yung tatakbuhin ko pa, peromagpahinga. Makikinig. Baka may adviceSiya. Kung anu pa ang pwede kong gawin.Baka may bike. Makakatulong yun... Oonga pala. 'Di na ko tatakbo.

Maglalakad na lang ako..maglalakad ako tapos sasamahan Niya ko. Naiiwan ko kasi Siya pag tumatakbo ako. Maglalakad kami.Palabas ng kangkungan.

---nainspire si kitel... ako din.. sana kau din!!... =)

hindi ako suplada!!

2007-07-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

10 am. ang start ng class, and guess what?!! late kami ni anne!! si dean pa nmn ang ci. haha. reason?? kasi telebabad!!! kasi di pwede pagusapan ung mga dapat pagusapan sa school kasi mabubuking kami... haha (tsismosa!!) haha. ang ok pa nun e nagkasabay kami pagpasok... bwahaha. kung alam ko lang na makakasabay ko sya sa bus, hindi na lang sana kami nagtelebabad!! bwahaha. ANG KULIT NATIN ANNE!!!

nweiz...

after 4 long years, FINALLY!!

nagkita na kami ni rion... harhar. (July 16, 2007)

hanep na think positive yan!! nakakahawa ka, galing magmotivate!!

so, aun na nga nagkita nga kami ni rion sa SM... secret kung saang sm. haha.

walang humpay na pagikot ikot sa sm... at tawa lang kami ng tawa.... tapos nood kami ratatouelle... kain popcorn at zagu!! ang saya!!! natutuwa lang tlga ako kasi nagstart kami maging magkaibigan sa face-pic tapos email.. tapos aun!! sya lang ang taong pinagtyagaan akong kausapin sa net sa loob ng 4 years. thank you!! haha. astig ka rion, ur da best!! im looking forward in adding more years to our friendship... naks!!

remembrance.... rion & me!!!

wow kami... hehehe. parang ang laki ng mukha ko ah... hahaha

july 15.... pictorial ko... haha

pambawi na picture... napagtripan ko kasing magpicture picture nun Sunday... nakabrown kasi ako... connection?? feeling ko bagay sa akin ang brown... ahihi. tignan nyo na lang multiply ko... =) http://chixzy.multiply.com/ ---kapal mukha e noh?! haha

*** nga pla... may nabasa akong book sa national... "magsopas muna". try nyo bumili... nakakatuwang basahin! =)

hmmmm...

for kitel,

don't mind them dude... di mo kailangan magpaliwanag sa kanila... iba na ang mapuang minahal natin noon... ibang iba na. bayaan mo na sila... ang mahalaga andito kami na tunay mong mga kaibigan... lalo na ako!!! alam namin ang totoo. kaya smile ka na loka!! =) bawal paapekto, baka pumangit ka!! nognog pa nmn tau... hahaha

Bored and all alone... nyay!

2007-07-14T01:01:00.000+08:00

super shocking ang araw na ito.... i just found out na kinasal na pla ang aking katropa... lahat kami, as in lahat kami... walang kaalam alam....

kahapon nagtext c jovelle na kinasal na daw si sherrylou, tignan ko daw sa friendster.... at eto ako ngaun nakatitig sa site nya... and yeah.. totoo nga. ang kaibigan kong gustong magmadre eto nauna pa sa amin na ikasal.. WOW!!!

medyo tampo ako kasi wala kaming kaalam alam pero happy na rin kasi... WOW!! she's married!! as in...

"CONGRATULATIONS SHERRYLOU!!! "

may God be the center of your married life... God bless both of you!! and may God bless you with a basketball team.. haha.

You looked dashing!! =)

sherrylou & her hubby... (dekwat lang toh.. haha)

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i saw my dad today.. he's really sad & disappointed... even though he did not say it verbally, i know that he's really sad. i can feel it, i can see it in his eyes.... =(

i almost cry kanina kasi tlgang ramdam ko ung nararamdaman ng daddy ko. i wanted to hug him... i wanted to tell him na its OK to be sad... na no matter what, for better or for worst, we'll stay together at mahal namin sya ng sobra...

my dad has a very strong personality, malihim sa nararamdaman nya pero kaya ko syang basahin... kasi im like him most of the time. napatunayan ko tlga kanina na ok lang na ako yung malungkot... wag ko lang makita na ung mga mahal ko ung nagkakaganun... hay buhay... ang hirap dalhin... =(

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sakto!! i was left all alone in the house... no class... laboy sana ako kaso aun nga, may importanteng lakad sina mommy kaya naiwan ako sa house... wala akong kwenta today kasi ang inatupag ko lng ay uminom ng 1 litrong chuckie, magbrowse sa net at magconvert ng walang humpay. may hangover pa ata ako ng duty namin at until now ay lantutay pa rin ako. hindi man lang ako naarawan. wahahaha.

i went out of the house around 8 pm. attend sana Bible study but we're late. sorry po ulit God. so, me & my sisters went to my grandparents house instead... tulog na si lola, si lolo kakwentuhan ng 2 sis ko at ako,kachika tito ko, binigyan nya ako ng isang katerbang hacked sites sa wap. wahaha. thank you sa hacked sites at sa pepsi!!! libre nnmn mga games ko!! =) yahooo!!

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umuwi na sina mommy at daddy, medyo maalwan na mukha ni daddy... pero ramdam ko pa rin ung sadness nya... hay buhay nakakalungkot tlga....

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a very nice quote that i have received today...
"forgiveness is like the sweet scent that flowers give when they are being crushed..."

i surrender...

2007-07-11T23:28:00.002+08:00

baliw ka kitel... haha. gandang intro... wag pakialaman ang title ko, ok?! (kitz) hahaha

surrender na daw sya sa akin... makulit daw kasi ako... di nmn e, maigiit lang tlga. wala tayong magagawa, im patient e. hahaha. its my virtue. =) thank you kasi di mo ako iniwan!!

ako din, i almost surrender bec of that chatbox... mahirapan ba daw sa paglalagay. nweiz, aun thank God my nagbigay ng site... thank you!! =)

muntik ng maging "bad day" araw ko. buti na lang mabait si mam barrientos. thank you!! =) your right mark... magingat sa mga taong nakangiti sayo... kasi madalas minsan (huh?) sila ung tumitira at naninira sau kapag nakatalikod ka na. sana tamaan ka friend (sjc). lolzzz

friend(sjc)...
i will never be like you... sayang, i considered you pa nmn as a close friend, but you're too childish. too plastic!! so immature!! you may be on top right now laughing but sooner or sooner (never later... lol) you will go down and you will be sorry (very sorry) for those things that you have done. God bless you. we can't be friends anymore... NEVER!! thanks for opening my eyes... "not all close friends are real... the real ones are those who stab you in front, not behind you"

friend (somewhere)
we're friends... though i can't be that nice right now, im not used in sudden change... im not prepared for that. i had thought that you're my dream come true, but ive awakened to the reality that you're not. thank you! another lesson from God. too bad i fell for you... mabait pa nmn tingin ko sayo... di ko talaga akalain na you're like that... i trusted you. im no bubble gum!! please don't be insensitive...

friend(kachat ko ngaun)
THANK YOU so much!! you were with me all the way!! super na-aappreciate kita!! mahal na mahal kita... alam mo yan!! =) im here then for you, all the way... hanggang sa maging lola ka na at ako ay dalaga pa den. hahaha
subtle == " i guess you're just one of those wrongs i must meet to find mr right"
wapak == "ung prince kasi sa dream ko hindi insensitive, (edited) at higit sa lahat di nagpapaasa"
WAPAK KA TALAGA!! maldita effect ka nmn e... haha. sarcastic lang dapat. nya!! hahaha

friend(papu)
Thank you din kasi you were there for me to make me smile... =) salamat sa mga pambobola. sa mga lines mo na tlgang pumapatok!! pero nothing can beat my motto.. " ang love parang us vise... idedeny ko lang ng idedeny!!" wahaha. promise, lagi kang sumasakto!! salamat papz! =)

friend(from apc.. rion)
naks!! kasali ka... thank you din lalo na sa text mong "ano, saktan natin??". magkikita din tau... at ililibre mo ako ng ticket!! ako na bahala sa kwento!!! salamat sa bedroom voice... na talagang nakakatuwa... hehe. =) thank you for making me smile today... after all, its not really a bad day. you're right!! naks!! =)

i am happy that you've found you're happiness , and it's time i find mine.

enjoying d weekend... II -new hair style!!!

2007-07-10T02:21:00.000+08:00

---SUNDAY...

i woke up late.... feeling very sick i rushed in2 the bathroom... waaaah i'm late for the Sunday Worship... sorry po God. good thing 3 hrs ung pagsamba... kaso bad pa din kasi nga im late... after the service, i had a little chi-chat w/ f8 & eldrin then i wen't home... feeling sick tlga. hello kama ulit... i slept for about 2 hrs. and again, im in a hurry because we have a joint fellowship in pascam... tsaka i can't be late!! tutugtog kami.... ayayay!!

aun... joint fellowship na... everything turned out very well. =) election perce na rin pla un ng youth ng cyf...

merienda time na!! hehehe

after the fellowship... i had my drums lesson with edong as my music teacher/coach. my first lesson was about pattern 1.... waaah. nakakalito... nakakangalay.... nakakangawit.... pero its worth it naman kasi nagenjoy tjga ako.. partida na yan... masama pakiramdam ko. =)

kenneth extra!!

after ng drums lessons... a little chi-chat again outside. pictorial pa nga ang nangyari! hahaha. special request ni LD. a little papogi effect.

edong (basist), eldie (lead( & kenneth kulit (drums)

after that mom & i went straight to the salon... "high density salon". astig ung hairstylist... ms. dara plan.. w0w sya, as in WOW!!! she's the owner of the salon pero she prefers cutting the hairs of 1st tym clients, kaya aun, she's the one who did my hair!! ASTIG!!! super nakakatulala syang tignan... hahaha. nweiz, aun so, 2 hrs ako sa salon... nagpahot oil pa xe ako.. wahaha. daldal!! sayang wala akong pix ni ms. dara.. pero promise wow tlga... (uso redundancy ngaun!!)

cencia na sa pic editing... antok na ko e.

nweiz (ulit), i love my new hairstyle... 1 foot mahigit ang binawas sa hair ako... dami nagreact sa text ko... ung iba sabi congrats daw at si jenny... ang nagiisang nagsabi ..."bat ka nagpagupit??? ang ganda na ng buhok mo e." wahaha. for a change lang po.... gaan nga sa pakiramdam e... medyo wash and wear although hindi sya tlga ganun ka short... =)

ang ikli daw sabi ni jeric!! wahaha

sleeping time na.... HELLO KAMA!!

enjoying d weekend.. =)

2007-07-10T00:32:00.000+08:00

---FRIDAY...

as far as i can remeber, i was d laziest person today... haven't done anything besides sleeping... ayos!! napuyat sa telebabad nmin ni rion... haha. bitin!! now you know what i can do when im in my "tulig" days...

naasar lang ako kay kenneth... SUPER kulit katext, paulit ulit!!! hahaha. kelan daw matuuloy ang praktis... blah blah blah.

i attended the Bible study....

Hello kama...!!

---SATURDAY...

ok... HELLO PHARMACOLOGY naman!! im not prepared for any quizzes!! anne's not prepared either!! huhuhu... thank God we're in the lab... haha. *wink*

the class was pretty boring... or sobrang daming gamot lang tlga at nakakapraning imemorize lahat. oh, well, thank you mark sa pagtanggal mo ng pintura sa lamesa....

finished product ng boredome.... (lagot ka mark!!)

now we're off to raquel's place... getting our MMR vaccine for only 850!! kumain muna kami ng valenciana ni mang mike... sarap! then, ate sally arrived, we got our booster shot. ok, fine!! masakit!!... good thing mark brought susie!! pampatanggal ng sakit at kaba!! =) kawawang susie... pinagpasapasahan... pinagtripan ni anne using tissue, inipitan ni arianne, pinicturan ni raqz... at kinulit ni meryl... buti pa ko hug lang sya.. hahaha

susie!! after d grooming session w/ manay arianne

i went home early.... i have a choir practice xe. aun so 7:30 na natapos practice... we're late na for our eating session. eldrin, jeric & I went immediately to our tambayan, "Naty's Ihaw 2x". aun, walang humpay na kain at coke 1.5. waaah. super sakit ng tiyan nmin...

after ng eating session... jeric & i went to pascam... yehey!! band practice!! woohoo!! official vocalist na kami ni grace!! (la lang) haha.

grace, me, edong (edward.. lol) & kenneth... wala si eldie. (absent!!)

super enjoy ako sa praktis... i learned 3 unfimiliar songs in about 1 1/2 hours. astig!! hahaha. grace and i are the vocalists, edong as the basist & kenneth kulit on drums.. too bad, eldie didn't make it, lead guitarist pa nmn... nweiz, 10:30pm na nung natapos ung practice... uwian na.

hello kama ulit!!

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

wapak!! quotes....

2007-07-07T00:56:00.000+08:00

--0o0--

ok.. so here's a "wapak!!" quote from krystel....

"If you are not sure where you stand in someone's life....

it's best to leave things behind so that if they drop you off,

it will be easier to forget them.

Don't waste your time waiting for nothing;

when efforts are not recognized.

It's best to just give things up.

You've done your part, let them do theirs... "

-- i asked for signs... then God answered me immediately with a rain.... now its all clear...

--for kitel: "you wer ryt!! ADIK!!!... hope is still there (kulit ko tlga!!)... pero wapak tlga para sa ting 2!!"

--0o0--

a quote from mark (taba!!)

"I believe d saddest thing in life is loving someone

so much and then one day....

you look into their eyes and listen to them talk

and realize that the magic is GONE.

All you see in front of you is a STRANGER with just known name. "

--- for jovzki: "everybody fears this moment too. don't worry about it. enjoy what you have right now w/ gab!!"

--0o0--

one of my favorite quotes....

"The best part of being inlove

is when you just love a person & be happy about it,

even if that person can never be yours,

even if you know that it can't last forever.

That's the true essence of love...

it's not about winning someone...

it's not about owning a relationship.

it's just about being happy 'coz u know you have loved someone.

it's about being guiltless coz you know you didn't take away someone from anybody... "

---for jhun: "i didn't know that you're deep... just be happy loving her."

--0o0--

my favorite quote...

"Don't search for love, let love search for you.

That's why it is called falling inlove...

coz you don't actuallt force yourself to love...

YOU JUST FALL.... "

--for jp: "i did what i think is best!! im sorry... "

d wedding adventure!!

2007-06-25T23:00:00.000+08:00

---for june 23, 2007--

tita may, "ATE MITCHY" & tito alex

today is the wedding of my cousin, Michelle. closest cuz ko toh kaya di dapat palagpasin ang kasal!! yey!! abay kaming ng mga sis ko.

venue: cardona rizal. time: 10 am

the call time is 5:00 am (OA masyado) 4:30 na ata ako bumangon.. so sleepy pa kasi. nweiz... so lumabas na kami ng bahay at aun ung van nagaantay na. syempre late again!! hahaha. there's kuya crew, ate lanie, ninang chitz, te lyn 2x, ate chim, jaennie, at ang dalawa kong inaanak c kyle & zhan. at syempre si manong topher, ang driver namin. =)

so aun.. layas na kami... super saya tlga ng trip na toh!!! daming happenings papunta pa lang....

1. super tawanan kami... nang biglang nasiraan sa may bacoor... naputol daw ung kung ano na kapag di naayos sorry na lang kami. super ayos nmn si manong topher, punong puno na ng grasa. at super worried na mga kasama ko... baka daw malate... (6:30 pa lang... OA tlga)
2. aun naayos na ung van (7:15 na). thank you Lord, walang trapik... at sa sobrang aliw ni manong topher sa chismis aun lumagpas kami sa shortcut!! BAWAL mag u-turn... edsa un!! grrr... pero ok na rin kasi nag picture 2x ako ng mga buildings... =)

astig ung design neto... promise!!

3. at last, nasa rizal na kami (8:30)... akala nmin ok na ang lahat ng biglang.... umusok ung van!! hay buhay nga namn!! takbuhan kami sa labas kasi sasabog na daw ung van. hahaha. saya!!!

4. luckily, aun!! kailangan daw itulak ang van!! grrr... wehehe... mabait ako e.. so aun mega tulak din ako.. buti na lang pababa ung kalsada. whew!! hehe.

5. so aun biyahe ulit (8:40)... hays pagdating nmn sa may city... aun napagbintangan kami na nakasagi ng pajero. akala nmin magkakagulo... pahiya ung may ari ng car kasi wala nmng gasgas... tsaka maraming nakakita na sya ung umatras. bwahaha

6. aun biyahe ulit...so 9:10 na ng makarating kami sa house ni tita...todo make up na kami... at ung gown!! wow... super baba sa likod!! astig!! haha. sexy!!

at the wedding...

1. hanap ko partner ko... di ko kilala e... haha. candle lighting daw kami... di ko lam kung alin ung sisindihan... lagot!
2. start na ung wedding... si jireh at si ardee lang napicturan ko....

jireh & ardee... taga tanggal ng veil!! wahaha

3. trip ko sanang makinig kaso nakakadistract ung isa sa mga ninang...naka T-back kasi. hahaha. nasa harap ko pa.. aun pinicturan nmin. haha. (bad!!)

here's d pic... SORRY!!! (ang pilya ko daw)
hahaha

3. since nadistract na kaming lahat... aun picture 2x na lang ang inatupag ko.

(tulog muna ko..... haha.)